03/01/2025
IT IS BOTH . There is always, and there has to be, an ending to make a beginning. But the ending doesn’t completely end because it becomes part of you that you bring to the new beginning. I think we are afraid to end things sometimes, I know I was. Afraid about the empty space in front of a new beginning. I struggled though 7 months inside the bud of a new beginning, and while I was in it-it took a lot of faith to shift my brain and heart from worrying about not knowing to discovering what God wanted to show me at that very time. I went through waves of inspiration and blankness…waiting…but maybe rather searching is a better word because I knew God had something; I just didn’t know what it was. Slowly, as I wrestled with God, daily, hourly, a vision crawled up from way down deep inside my heart where fear sometimes covers our deepest dreams. It was like a green sprout breaking ground! Ministry! Of course! Could it ever be? I sat there now afraid of what might never happen. I sat there having let that dream become spoken word. I sat with that feeling beyond vulnerable. I sat and asked…could it ever be?
And it became. Lord you are so sweet to bring me here.
And what I thought had ended, was necessary for me to bring to this beginning. It was essential actually; it was the soil for the new beginning, a new place to grow!
Have faith❤️ Suzan
