The Trying Mama

11/14/2025

My house isn’t spotless, heck some days it isn’t even close to clean. I have toys scattered room to room, tiny finger prints on the windows, and bits and pieces of who knows what found in random places.

My bed is not mine, I get more than a sliver on a really good night. A full night of sleep sounds like a distant dream.

My clothes are not new, or super fancy. Why fill my closet with them right now when most of my time is spent at home and covered in crumbs, boogers, and drool.

I scroll social media when I get a few seconds to breathe and see all these people traveling, spotless homes, and I hear my babies laughing in the background, or a distant call of “mama” and still I think “there is no place I would rather be, than right here”.

This season will pass and faster than I think. One day my house will be always clean, and I’ll remember what it’s like to sprawl out in my bed. But for now, I’m right where I need and want to be even through the chaos ❤️

11/14/2025

I didn’t have a great childhood. For a lot of it I felt like I was in survival mode. I used to wonder if life would ever get better. I used to wonder if I would repeat the same things when I became a parent. I’m here to say it does get better and you do not have to repeat the same generational curses for your children.

The pain you experienced as a child wasn’t your fault. But you have the ability to take control and heal yourself to give your kids a better chance at life. All it takes is one person to say “I’ve had enough. No more” to stop pain for generations to come in your family.

The chain breaker, the curse breaker, the pain breaker. Let that be you, so your kids don’t have to be that person.🩷

11/10/2025

what an honor it is 🤍

11/01/2025

Can’t see the haters 🎄😎✨

10/25/2025

“Cutting off family is going to hurt your kids.”

No. You know what’s going to hurt my kids? Having a mother who stays silent when people mistreat them. Having a mother who teaches them to tolerate pain because “it’s family.” Having a mother who keeps toxic cycles alive just to keep the peace.

What hurts children is being forced to love people who hurt them. What hurts them is watching their mother betray her own instincts for the sake of tradition.

I will not teach my kids that blood is a free pass for bad behavior. I will not teach them that keeping quiet is the same thing as keeping peace. I will not hand them trauma wrapped in the word family.

I can’t protect them from every wound life will bring, but I’ll be damned if I let the ones I can prevent come from their own bloodline.

10/18/2025

10/15/2025

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10/11/2025

💗

10/06/2025

truly 🤍

09/30/2025

🙏🩷

09/29/2025

Happy National Coffee Day ☕️