01/24/2024
My brother and I once had s*x Bra Kweku. It happened like nine months ago. Two days after my birthday.
We haven't spoken about it ever since. We've both pretended it never happened. We just talk and relate like siblings. We've not mentioned it to ourselves or anyone(I haven't, and I doubt he has).
The day it happened we were in my room eating pizza when we both started watching p**n. The next thing we realised was we were having s*xx. The moment he finished, he walked out, he didn't even look at my face or say anything to me till today.
Sometimes I want to talk about it. I want to ask him how it was and why it happened. He didn't seduce me, I remember we both started touching ourselves so it was voluntary. In fact, I touched him first but he started showing the p**n.
He is my junior brother so I understand why he probably never raised it. Just that since that day, I've want him and he doesn't make himself available for me. He left me in the middle that day, I didn't cm though he did and it felt soo nice. Anytime I'm alone or I see him, I still get that feeling I had when he left me lying down and walked out. I still feel for him and its like I want him to finish what he started smh.
I've tried not to want him but the urge grows stronger by the day. I never felt like that towards him till that day. My feelings for him has changed ever since and it's affecting me. He keeps over looking everything and pretends we never did anything or like he doesn't think about it.
I feel he is selfish. If he talks about it, I'm sure I may feel better. I'm really suffering because of him. When I'm inside, I'm just h***y and trying to get him to come to my room but he won't.