09/09/2026
My whole life I was in constant worry.
Worried about what people would think about me. Worried about money. Worried if I was going to be able to pay my bills. Worried if I would have money left at the end of the week for groceries.
I was always worrying about something.
We have been taught that we need to control everything in our lives. That we need to constantly be seeking, chasing, attaining, and trying to secure the next thing.
More money. A better job. A better car. A better home. A better life.
It creates this restless state inside of us where we are never truly at peace.
I was in a constant state of stress and worry, and the world taught me that this was normal. I learned it from my parents, my family, other people, and everything the system designed us to believe.
Living in fear.
I remember growing up as a child and always wondering, why does this world work this way?
Why can’t everything be given and shared?
Why do we have to work just to eat?
Why do we have to work just to live?
Why do we have to work just to enjoy life?
These things always puzzled me. I always wondered why the world couldn’t be easier and more loving. Why couldn’t we all share? Why couldn’t we grow our own food? Why couldn’t everyone learn their own craft, use their God-given gifts, and help each other through mutual exchange?
I lived so much of my life with that confusion.
And I also always wondered why it seemed like humans were the only species on the planet living in constant worry and stress.
Every animal I saw looked natural in their habitat.
My pets never stressed about what they would eat or drink. They didn’t sit there worrying about tomorrow. They just knew they would be supplied.
Some people would say, of course your pets don’t worry, they have you to feed them.
But now I ask myself, is it really me supplying them?
Or is it their God-given right to be provided for?
It may look like we are the ones taking care of them, but now I see that God was always the one providing for them through us.
Look at the birds.
Look at the lizards.
Look at the stray cats.
The stray cats sleep outside all day, wherever they want, completely relaxed. They are not panicking about tomorrow. They are not stressing themselves sick. They live with this natural knowing that they will be provided for by whoever or whatever God uses.
That realization blew my mind.
Why is it that humans worry and stress so much that it destroys their health, their peace, and their minds?
Maybe this is exactly how the system keeps us disconnected from God.
Disconnected from source.
Disconnected from true abundance.
When I came into this fruitarian journey, I had no idea how spiritual it was going to become. I had no idea how much insight and divine wisdom would come from simply returning to God’s design.
Scripture started speaking to me differently.
I was finally able to read certain verses and feel them in my spirit, not just understand them with my mind.
Matthew 6:25-34 was one of those verses.
Jesus said, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear.”
Then He tells us to look at the birds of the air.
They do not sow or reap or store away in barns, yet our Heavenly Father feeds them.
That verse changed the way I saw everything.
Because this was exactly what I had been wondering since I was a child.
Why are we the ones always worrying?
Why are we the ones always chasing?
Why are we the ones always afraid we will not have enough?
How beautiful is it to fear and worry your whole life, just to find God again and be comforted by His unconditional love.
I finally understood what this verse was trying to tell me.
Fear is an illusion.
Fear is the opposite of God, because God is love.
1 John 4:8 says, “God is love.”
That changed the way I viewed life and God.
This whole time, many of us were taught God the punisher. God the judge. Fear God. Be afraid of God.
But God was never fear.
God was never the punisher.
God is pure love.
Waiting for us to wake up.
Waiting for us to come back to His steadfast love.
Waiting for us to remember that we were never separate from Him.
I realized the only way the system controls us is through our beliefs and thoughts.
If we believe in scarcity and lack, our mind reflects that into our outer world.
But if we believe in abundance, faith, love, and God, our world begins to reflect that too.
That was a game changer for me.
As soon as I learned this, I started practicing mind purification every day. I was so excited to realize that I could change my world by changing my inner world.
I started replacing every negative thought with a positive, beautiful one.
I started choosing my thoughts instead of being a slave to them.
I became the conscious creator of my mind.
I started thinking about beautiful things. Love. Security. Freedom. Abundance. Peace. The life I wanted to create with God.
I realized I had to be the guard to the gates of my mind, constantly watching what thoughts I allowed in and what thoughts I entertained.
The more I practiced this, the more I realized something even deeper.
Our thoughts are not always our own.
That realization taught me presence.
Instead of thinking all day, I started learning how to stay present with God.
Because now is the only time God created.
Not the past.
Not the future.
Now.
That brought so much peace into my life.
Knowing that I am provided for. Not by my job. Not by my family. Not by another person.
God is my supply.
That completely changed my life. It allowed me to start working for myself and stop living in constant fear about money and things.
I practiced these principles in real life, and I was able to witness that they are true.
God provided everything I needed.
Not always everything I wanted.
But everything I truly needed.
He was always there for me.
And every time He showed me that, my trust in Him grew stronger and stronger.
Fruit led me back to God.
Fasting made my connection stronger.
Prayer renewed my mind.
And now my inner world is finally starting to reflect in my outer world.
How beautiful is it to know that these things can change your life forever?
Now I understand when Jesus said,
“Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.”
Matthew 6:10
God put us here to enjoy His world.
To enjoy life with faith.
To create Heaven on Earth from within.
To live through love instead of fear.
To trust that we are provided for.
I love you all, and I truly wish these beautiful things for you as well.
It just takes daily surrender and faith.
Every day you practice these principles, your connection with God becomes stronger.
And eventually, you start seeing it reflected in your outer world.