01/01/2021
As most of you know, I keep a daily record of my actions. Each day, I write out 5 actions that would positively add to my life or my business. Most days (thankfully) I have to fulfill orders. Other tasks include creating new videos, podcasts, or designs. Most of the actions are business related, but all of them are meant further my life in some manner. There are multiple social accounts to stay active with (like this one), but those usually fall to sub-goals or goals that are not critical, but should be done if times allows.
If I complete all five tasks, that day is marked with a "W" but if I only complete four, it is marked as a "L". This is a binary way for me to measure each day, week, month, and year. I either "won" or I "lost". I function at my highest level in a goal-oriented mindset. Without some sort of checklist, my day goes downhill quickly and my brain just goes on autopilot.
My first day of 2020 was spent with Lamchop at the fu***ng hospital. That wasn't awesome. This year, I was legitimately concerned that I had "lost" the year. While tallying my days, I was seeing a lot of blank pages with "L" on them. On some, I had scribbled "F**k This", "I Give Up", or a slew of other things I'll never admit in public. If you listened to the last podcast of 2020, you heard me say that my year wasn't terrible. However, that doesn't mean that there weren't terrible days, weeks even. I'm pretty open about my life, but there's a sliver I keep within my small circle, and an even smaller sliver that never sees the light of day. That's the dark s**t. That's the s**t that will have me in a 10-day, blank page, losing streak, not even bothering to write goals.
I'm not really sure why I started writing this, but hopefully it helps someone. Hopefully, it helps remind someone that not every day is rainbows and burritos. Some days, a lot of days, are dark and evil. Days that feel like they never end, but they do. It's ok for those days exist. Most of us need those days whether we enjoy having them or not.
To round out this depressing s**t, let's do some numbers. Out of the 365 days of 2020, I was able to "win" 239 of them. I made the least amount of money I have in the past couple of years, but I'm proud of the steps I took this year and the moves that were made. It's easy to remember times that sucked, but when I look at my year this way, it's easier to see the good. I might not remember April 6th, but my notebook says that I completed all my goals for the day and took another step closer to being a better human in some way.
I hope you take advantage of 2021, no matter what happens.
