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04/13/2026

My clearing negative energy play list for my home!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2DgyvSEN2BbBWPW2bHRWc9?si=bxmqmqexQBSyi_RqLZhMXw&pi=X2_w-jlZTYemN

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03/12/2026

Today’s Motivation:

Embrace the peace that comes with not knowing.

Chasing certainty and guarantees takes up a lot of our energy as we’re trying to control outcomes that haven’t even unfolded yet.

Acceptance is the key to finding peace, regardless of not knowing how it will turn out.

You do not need all the answers right now.

You have the ability to handle whatever comes with grace since you trust that each experience is guiding you toward your highest good.

Even when things don’t work out as planned, they create space for more aligned possibilities.

You are learning and evolving with each step you take.

Show up fully today, and embrace what is actually here.

02/13/2026

Happy Friday the 13th!
Here is Today’s Motivation:

One decision can change everything.

Choosing to believe that something better is possible is an act of courage.

Take the next step, rooted in trust.

Sometimes life can feel unbearably painful, but your story is not meant to be defined by its lowest moments.

Often, fear disguises itself as logic, telling you certain outcomes are impossible, and making you more prone to internalizing feelings of lack and helplessness.

It tries to convince you that this is all there will ever be.

But the quiet, yet powerful choice to keep going, to trust the flow of life, one moment, one breath at a time, matters more than you realize.

Things may feel messy and confusing, but you must trust that it’s all leading you toward what’s meant for you.

02/10/2026

Today’s Motivation:
You can only connect the dots in hindsight, not in advance.

As your path unfolds in the present moment, you have to trust the sequence of events.

No matter how chaotic or impossible things may seem, you need to keep coming back to the belief that it will all work out in your favor.

This isn’t always easy, and that’s why it’s a practice, especially when the odds feel stacked against you.

Come back to this state of trusting, again and again.

It’s the key to moving forward with gratitude for the things that are taking shape and about to arrive in your life.

02/06/2026

Go chek out my son’s latest song/video! His album drops in February!

Welcome to my WHITE TRASH WHITE TRASH fantasy. The song and video both embrace my roots of shock value art with a message. This is my frivolous attempt at gi...

02/04/2026

The difference between me and most people is simple: my determination might look like a toxic trait to others. I don’t like asking for help. Life taught me early that survival meant self-reliance.
Being raised by a narcissist, and later having children with narcissistic men, stripped any comfort from the idea of playing the victim. I learned quickly that no one was coming to save me. So I stopped waiting.
If I cannot walk, I will crawl. If I cannot crawl, I will hop on one leg. I will do whatever has to be done. Today, I vacuumed and mopped on one leg—not because it was easy, but because quitting was never an option.
I refuse to be a victim in this life.
I was abused sexually, physically, and mentally as both a child and an adult woman. Those experiences carved deep scars, but they also carved clarity. Every person who hurt me became a lesson in who I never wanted to be.
Everything in my life is a learning experience. Pain did not break me—it sharpened me. I carry my past not as a sentence, but as proof that I survived, adapted, and chose strength every single time.
It’s not always pretty!

01/26/2026

This jar spell is crafted to return negative energy and accelerate karma, serving as a protective measure that reflects harmful intentions back to their origin. It works on the principle that those who send negativity must face the consequences of their own actions, not the recipient. This is a serious and deliberate practice, reserved only for truly malicious individuals in my practice of magic. Typically, I prefer a simpler method—returning energy threefold using a compact mirror and a photo of the person—but this jar spell is intended for those whose actions are especially harmful or vile.
This is just my preference. I do not pass judgement on how others practice the craft.

01/23/2026

Last night, I found myself down and rolling in the mud with pigs. It’s not something I usually do, but sometimes a person can only take so much. So this morning, I got up and performed an aura protection spell. You might wonder why an aura protection spell? It’s designed to create an energetic barrier around a person, shielding them from negative energy, emotional drain, and external stressors. This kind of protection helps maintain personal, spiritual, and emotional balance. I needed it because I was just about ready to lose my composure with those pigs.

Go check out my TikTok and follow me for more spell work.

Last night, I found myself down and rolling in the mud with pigs. It’s not something I usually do, but sometimes a person can only take so much. So this morning, I got up and performed an aura protection spell. You might wonder why an aura protection spell? It’s designed to create an energetic b...

01/14/2026

You’re evolving every day.



Your life is changing.



The shifts may feel subtle now, but one day you’ll look back and see the bigger picture.


Today’s motivation:

All the confusion and the waiting were guiding you to something meaningful.

Even the smallest steps you take each day, the ones that seem insignificant in the moment, are making a difference.

You hold incredible strength, even when it feels like you’ve reached your breaking point, even when it seems like there’s no way out.

Whether it’s choosing patience over frustration, grace and forgiveness over anger, it all adds up.

Keep learning. Keep choosing better for yourself in small ways.

01/10/2026

Today’s Motivation:

Your mind feels noisy.⁠

It's filled with fears about what might happen, limiting beliefs about your life, other people’s opinions, and self-doubt.

All of this noise pulls you away from the present moment. ⁠⁠

By intentionally letting go of the unhelpful thoughts, you create space for calm.

Allow yourself to be still. Bring your attention to your breath and let everything else fade.

In this space, just being is enough.

There’s nothing to fix, no solutions to figure out, nothing to achieve.

You don’t have to rush. You don’t have to force anything.

The gifts that are yours will find you, one way or another.

08/17/2025

This is spot on! I hope that my children will understand what I had to go through to make sure they could have a voice that I never was allowed to have!

In a narcissistic family, loyalty isn't about love—it’s about silence. It’s a silent pact everyone somehow understands but no one openly acknowledges. Everyone knows the truth deep inside—the lies, the manipulation, the emotional damage—but they stay quiet. This silence is born out of fear, confusion, and a desperate need to keep the fragile family image intact. No one wants to be the one who disrupts the carefully constructed façade, because speaking up risks rejection, punishment, or being labeled the “problem.”

They remain too cowardly to confront the reality head-on, afraid of the consequences that truth might bring. At the same time, they are too invested—emotionally, socially, and sometimes financially—in the family’s toxic dynamics to make a change. This twisted loyalty binds them in invisible chains of denial and self-preservation, where survival depends on protecting the narcissist’s image rather than seeking healing or freedom.

Love, in this environment, becomes a word stripped of its true meaning. Instead of nurturing connection and safety, it’s replaced by fear, control, and compliance. The family members learn to silence their own pain, to suppress their voices, and to minimize their experiences just to avoid rocking the boat. Over time, this creates wounds that run deep—wounds invisible to outsiders but profoundly scarring to those living it.

Breaking that silence is often the hardest battle. It requires immense courage to face not just the narcissist, but the entire ecosystem that enabled the dysfunction. But without breaking that silence, healing remains out of reach, and the cycle repeats, passing pain down through generations.