01/05/2024
The thing I’m most proud about in 2023 is doing the healing work to allow myself to be seen. Hiding has always been my thing. It’s my way of dealing with my trauma in private because I didn’t want the world to see that I was in so much pain. So I got really good at taking a hiatus.
One thing that never changed was how I showed up in real life. Regardless of how I was feeling, getting dressed was my therapy. My outfits were always coordinated around my hairstyles. Ironically, while I would show up boldly, internally I didn’t want to be seen because I was afraid people could see the child who was abandoned. So whenever someone would compliment me, I would get nervous and sometimes freeze. I knew people could see what I didn’t have the confidence to own in myself at the time, and that scared me.
The first photoshoot I’ve ever done in Houston was with for his black hair peoject. I’ve always felt like he could see things in me that I was too afraid to come out of my shell to do. God will put you in a specific place with specific people in your life to walk you in your purpose. I started off the year with a photoshoot with Trevoy when I was depressed and trying to hide it, and now we ending the year with a photoshoot where I’m in a healing space aligned with my purpose.
This photoshoot was not planned. It got too dark to shoot outside and as we were brainstorming we decided on a beauty supply store. We found in the Third Ward area and the owner accommodated us for almost 2 hours. Everything happened organically and the entire photoshoot went smoothly. As my therapist always say, “When something is meant for you, the universe will gather everything you need for it to happen”.
Last, but not least. told me that she doesn’t do traditional styles but send her some inspiration and she’ll give it a shot. This was her giving it a shot with no tutorial! She devoured this hairstyles and left NO CRUMBS! 🔥 Like…muah, no bars!
But clear the road, I’m causing wahala allllll 2024 baby 🥰 prepared to see me on a billboard!
