04/14/2025
Real Talk: Last weekend, in the middle of a loud club, I got into an argument with a man whom I really like & was briefly dating. (It's already over. womp womp womp).
Anyway, I was so frustrated I started crying. He looked at me with the confused face that nearly all men make when they think women should not be crying. Predictably he asked incredulously, "ARE YOU CRYING?! YO! aRe YoU CrYing???????????"
My ADHD ass heard him say it in the voice of Tom Hanks in Major League. i.e. ARE YOU CRYING?! THERE'S NO CRYING IN BASEBALL!
I got distracted with that thought before word vomiting that I'm in perimenopause & I'm WILDLY emotionally unstable & my feelings are on 1,000% at any given moment. And I was sorry & I felt humiliated, etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.
And then I hugged him & cried on his shoulder right there in the crowded club & he held me, with hundreds of people around us.
Not my finest moment. But it was my REALEST moment. I was completely emotionally overwhelmed. I did not -intially- feel heard or understood. I was honest. I let myself have my emotions. I didn't take my emotions out on him in ways that were unfair to him, I just let them overcome *me*. He handled it like a g. No drama, just empathy. He said something like, "I know you want to feel understood in this moment & you don't & I'm sorry."
And the argument resolved genuinely peacefully due to the emotional intelligence of us both being able to name our issue without attacking the other.
I will ALWAYS believe in healing out loud. In sharing our messy selves, messy faith, messy healing journey, hell even messy dating stories.
Cuz, Y'all. Arguing with a man I'm dating at a club about the silliest s**t is a shenanigan I feel entirely too old for. But, my journey is my journey & even with all the healing I've done I still find myself in crazy situations while I'm just out here being a human, having human experiences.
I was upset in the club & I cried in the club, I didn't shoot up the club. Healing is important. Embrace it.