11/18/2025
Like all things in life, big changes seem to come in 3's for me! So the universe, staying true to her form & our natural rhythms together, has presented us with yet another GIGANTIC, NERVE-RACKING, EXHILERATING turn of events! As it happens, we're moving to Salem, Oregon on December 28th. Whoa! Even just typing that out makes my heart thump like an elephant stampede in my chest.
Let's rewind a bit. I have now been in solo Midwifery practice for 4 years. Owning & operating Klamath Birth Center has been one of the single most professionally expansive & life changing experiences of my life. I have learned a million life times worth of lessons about myself & my capabilities & about what being a Midwife truly means. I have learned that I am an amazing Midwife who pours her actual heart & soul into the families she serves. I have learned that there is literally nothing I cannot do when I set my heart & mind to it. I have learned that I am a powerful creator. I have learned that my passion for Midwifery runs deep & wide within me & I have no doubt that I have been a healer for many, many, many life times. I have LOVED serving these families so deeply & wouldn't change a thing. I am so honored to have been the local Midwife in this small community & I have served my purpose well. I am forver thankul for the honor of being the Midwife for so many incredible families.
I've also learned that being the only Midwife for hundreds of square miles while serving a very rural demographic is a bit like paddling a canoe with one ore in a tsunami. Drowning is an understatement! In order to be the Midwife this community has needed me to be, I've had to sacrafice so much of myself & my families needs. I've had to be far more present for my clients than I've been able to be for my own personal life. My children have sacraficed their mother so that she could be present as other women became mothers. For our first 18 months here, I didn't have 1 single day off call. Since then, finding another Midwife to cover me has been nearly impossible & in the past 1,460 days, I've only been off call for 73 of those days. I've worked 80 hour weeks & have missed so much of my own children's lives in order to be present at the commencement of countless little souls lives. I gained a substantial amount of weight, had constant back problems & body aches, unimaginable stress, co start pressure from being on call 24/7, 340 days a year, more sleepless nights than I can count, & no reprieve in sight. Being in solo practice is one thing. But owning & operating a thriving Birth Center on top of being in solo practice, indescribable! Literally! I have no words adequate to explain the amount of work, dedication, constant pressure & sacrafice this past 4 years has required of me & my family. And I wouldn't take back any of it. But this is no longer sustainable & it hasn't been for quite some time. Everything I promised myself I wouldn't allow to happen when I became a Midwife has absolutely happened. So it's time for a change. A really big change!
Back in July, during a seemingly random & casual conversation with a dear friend of mine who owns & operates a thriving Birth Center in Salem, stars collided & fates aligned & a blessing arrived that I didn't even know I was searching for. I had absolutely NO idea that I was vibrationally seeking this momentous change in my life but apparently I was. She was vibrationally searching for me just the same. What a wild turn of events! There's been a million little beautiful synchronicities in between July & now & it would take hours to write it all out so the short of it goes like this.
I was offered a position as a staff Midwife at Belle Vie Birth Center & though I refused the offer at first, the universe insisted I listen to the still small voice within & shook me up pretty damn good & hard until she got my attention. I accepted the offer a week later & our lives are about to drastically shift in some massive ways. I have no doubt that this move is for all of our highest good & greatest joy! The children & I are excited & nervous understandably. Change has that effect on us humans.
My new position means giving up solo practice which will absolutely be a huge adjustment for me. I'll be giving up a good chunk of my autonomy as a Midwife which will take some time for me to get used to for sure. But truth be told, I am sooo looking forward to not being the boss anymore. I am so excited to not be a business owner anymore. It is not for the faint of heart! This move in career paths means regular time off call for me which means regular time with my own children. It means knowing that I can plan & take a trip with my children on a regular basis. It means knowing that I won't have to miss really important events & dates within my own family. It means working with a group of sister Midwives & not having to carry the load alone. It means having others to turn to & rely on & consult with & confide in. It means that if my daughter has a volleyball game or its one of my children's birthdays & someone goes into labor, I don't have to miss these big important moments in my own children's lives because there is another Midwife to call on. It means I can plan a trip home to Utah to see my 2 children currently living there. It means I can breathe occasionally. It means support & relief & community & commoraderie. It means I can actually be human again & not just a robot!
I am so truly thankful for this opportunity. My heart is overflowing & my nerves are shot, lol. I deeply trust that everything is always working out perfectly & I know in my heart that this is exactly the next best move for my family & I. Life is oh so good & I am oh so thankful! 💛💛💛
