12/21/2025
I stumbled upon a letter from my first love dated 1991 in the attic—a letter I had never come across before. After reading it, I searched her name online.
I wasn't actively searching for her. Not really.
Yet every December during the holidays, Susan—Sue, as everyone called her—would drift into my thoughts.
I'm approaching sixty. Nearly four decades ago, I lost the woman I once expected to grow old with. We didn't fall out of love. Life just became overwhelming, unpredictable. After college, careers took us down different paths. A single ignored letter turned into endless silence.
Both of us married other people. That's what I heard about her as well.
There were children, houses, endless obligations. We both constructed entire lives on a foundation of what we left unfinished.
Yet each Christmas, when the house settled and the tree glowed, questions would return.
Was she happy?
Did she ever remember me?
Did those promises we exchanged—as kids, naïve about the passing of years—ever cross her mind?
Last winter was unlike any before.
While sifting through boxes to find decorations in the attic, I discovered a yellowed envelope inside an old book. My name was written in a script I hadn't recognized for a long time.
It was her handwriting.
My hands trembled opening it. December 1991. An untouched letter. Perhaps it was deliberately hidden away by my ex-wife back then.
Reading it, I felt my chest tighten.
A single sentence froze me:
"If you don't answer this, I'll assume you chose the life you wanted — and I'll stop waiting."
So I did something I hadn’t done in thirty-eight years: I entered her name into the search bar.
I didn't expect much. But I hoped.
When the search results loaded, I could hardly process what I was seeing.
"Oh my God!" I muttered, hardly believing it. ⬇️