05/07/2019
I’m the type of person that expects the worst because I absolutely hate getting my hopes up. I also live in fear for many things in my life especially the unknown. I came across my journal entries from this time last year, and I was crippled with fear with each sentence. My relationship was ending and I was fearful of the unknown future and all of my decisions and mistakes. My saving grace was just to lean into Christ’s love with the desperate need of refuge and comfort, and it’s the only thing that got me through. I definitely do not have it all figured out but I do know that even in the worst of times is still at work in my heart and life. During this past year, where I feel like there has not been any spiritual growth, there actually has—in leaps and bounds. I don’t feel so fearful and so desperate anymore. Don’t get me wrong, i still have other demons and weaknesses, but there is always hope and growth. Always ♥️
