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09/24/2025

Since yesterday marked four years from Kody's death, I've been thinking a lot about legacy. How people live continues long after they die. A big part of Kody's life was his love of musicals. Whether a movie like Across the Universe or a Broadway show, music and theater blended into one love for him. As 90's kids, Kody and I especially loved The Lion King both the original movies and the musical....

Since yesterday marked four years from Kody’s death, I’ve been thinking a lot about legacy. How people live continues long after they die. A big part of Kody’s life was his love of musicals. Whether a movie like Across the Universe or a Broadway show, music and theater blended into one love fo...

09/21/2025

When it rains hard, I can't help thinking about Kody and his love of running in the rain. There was nothing Kody loved more when rain pounded on the roof than to frolic in the rain. I have talked before about running in the rain with him. It was one of those things that was predictable whenever the rain came down really hard....

When it rains hard, I can’t help thinking about Kody and his love of running in the rain. There was nothing Kody loved more when rain pounded on the roof than to frolic in the rain. I have talked before about running in the rain with him. It was one of those things that was […]

08/10/2025

Back on Kody's birthday, I had intended to go hike Heather Lake. There was an inconvenient trail closure that allowed me to once again procrastinate on moving forward. This specific hike is one that fate and my own anxiety has helped me put off since his death. Whenever I have plucked up the courage to go, I have found the trail inconveniently inaccessible.

Finally, everything lined up and I hiked it yesterday. The reason this hike is challenging for me is that this is the spot where Kody proposed. It is the place where our life together really began at least in a symbolic way. Going back to this place scared me because I wasn't sure how it would make me feel to be there, but I knew it was essential for moving forward.

The author reflects on a challenging hike to Heather Lake, a site of significant memories shared with Kody, who passed away. Despite initial anxiety and trail closures, the journey becomes a path of healing. She scatters Kody's ashes and acknowledges her grief, finding solace and a sense of moving f...

07/19/2025

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06/19/2025

This morning, I knew it was your birthday before I even got out of bed. I've felt it hovering closer all month, but I had hoped it would be better this year than in other years. I seem to keep the optimism that the grief really will fade over time. Today, I had multiple alarms set, and I silenced all of them one by one....

This morning, I knew it was your birthday before I even got out of bed. I’ve felt it hovering closer all month, but I had hoped it would be better this year than in other years. I seem to keep the optimism that the grief really will fade over time. Today, I had multiple alarms […]

05/25/2025

I'm left with the photographs and memories to remember you, but it is never enough.

When I reflect on the photographs and memories that remain of Kody, I am left feeling the emptiness of grief.

05/11/2025

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room? Because I sure have.

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05/02/2025

April showers bring May flowers and also the start of Mental Health Awareness Month, a time to shine the spotlight on hope in the light of mental health struggle.

Back in January, the focus was firmly on starting out the year on a new foot. You could join a gym just about anywhere for low upfront costs. Physical health is easy to advertise as the results are obvious. People can measure progress in pounds, clothing sizes, or even what they see in a mirror. [.....

04/16/2025

It's so frustrating that when adults go missing there is so little that is done to find them. I feel so deeply for this family and hope that Johnathan is found soon.

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03/02/2025

Music and Kody weave together in my mind even now that he is gone. Kody lived in several worlds and one of these was the world of music. I remember when I first met Kody, he had an ear bud in. In high school, music was a constant for him. Passing Kody in the halls meant seeing him with his ear buds in, the flow of students around him a world apart from the one he lived in....