05/13/2022
One year ago today- My Surgeon Cut the Greater occipital Nerve out and it seemed like an answer to the first failed surgery- 2 surgeries in 10 months is a lot for anyone but I had the attitude “I got this” yea well….. I lied. The recovery has been the worst pain of my life- you’d think a triple surgery would be worse, nope. Can’t touch this one- to think we may have to do another one breaks me, it kills me. I’m so done with surgeries and fighting… I just wanna live and be happy and not have to fake it. I know I’m a great actress but, 18 yrs of this is too much, I feel like I’m losing the fight, slowly. I don’t want to feel this way- I just want someone to come into my life and remind me that I am that good of an actress, I can still do it at 39, that I’m not too old or heavy- After all us bigger women need to be represented too. Mine is my meds but still. I even told when I met her I wanted to be an actress because of her role on - taught me to fight like hell and taught me to be happy and LIVE! I see these post on fb reminders and I want to cry- when is enough enough?