05/02/2024
I booked my first commercial of the year back in January, and it filmed on my nine year anniversary of me moving to California.
I auditioned for this commercial twice as two different roles, and I ended up getting a callback for the role of a mom. When things are meant to be, they work out so graciously most of the time. I had to work every single audition day and even the callback, but it all worked out.
In the callback room, I was paired with this really sweet little girl who was so shy. Now, the self tape auditions I didn't know exactly what my kids were doing or where I was picking them up from. I knew they won something, but I didn't know the specific place.
The producers explained the scene to us and how my daughter just won her school science fair. I literally was like, "Oh my God, this is a sign!!" You see, I started therapy the first week in January, and it's been all about my childhood as most therapy sessions are.
My childhood had been coming up very randomly throughout the days. Especially at my job at the time since we filmed at a school. I would get these snippet memories back to my childhood.
Well, in the callback, when the producer mentioned how my daughter won her science fair and how I was so proud of her, it triggered me back to I believe it was sixth grade. My schools science fair was the next day, and I didn't have a project done. One of my sisters helped me make a giant volcano out of newspaper, flour (maybe it was corn starch), and food coloring. It looked so crazy LOL!
I remember taking it to school for the fair, and a lot of the kids' parents came to see their projects. Well, nobody came for me. I don't even think my parents knew about it. In the call back, I remembered that feeling, and I looked at the girl playing my daughter as my younger self and how proud I was of her, of me. It was kind of healing in a way.
..and then I went back to my car and cried my eyes out and told my therapist all about it in our next session 😂🤦🏾♀️