09/16/2026
I’m so sorry I’ve been quiet. ❤️
Bluemont’s account is told from my point of view. I’m Lesley, the co-founder—the one who convinced her husband and our four boys that we could do this. That we could help hundreds of horses, advocate for them, teach others, and care for hospice cases, seniors, and special-needs equines.
I truly believed we could do this work without taking a major personal toll.
I was wrong.
I’ve always been a deeply feeling person, especially when it comes to animals. But I had no idea what the constant loss and grief of rescuing at this scale would actually feel like.
I’ve been through hard things in my life. I’ve been in the mud and the muck before.
But not like this.
I recently read a study about how grief can change the brain—how it can reshape the way we see ourselves and the world around us. For those of us in animal rescue, that grief can feel relentless.
It has been about 12 months now, beginning last June when we lost Vera after she fought so incredibly hard.
As we've taken in more horses and more special-needs cases, we've experienced more losses.
In my rational mind, I understand that this is part of rescue. But understanding something doesn't make it hurt less.
Last week, we suffered another major loss.
I came out of an hour-long brain scan to six missed calls and fifteen text messages.
There had been a rupture. Our veterinarian rushed over and was already performing euthanasia. An onsite necropsy followed because none of us could make sense of what had happened.
I needed to step inward for a while and process this one.
I’m not ready to talk about it yet, but I will share more when I am.
For now, I want to thank our incredible team for being there—for us and, most importantly, for the animals. ❤️
And about Cashew…
He is unfortunately still in the hospital.
We almost let him go this past Friday, but we decided to try one final medication.
Overall, he had been doing better. But he developed gut stasis, meaning his gastrointestinal system had essentially stopped moving. His doctors weren't sure whether this was the result of a negative feedback loop or whether his GI tract had simply sustained too much damage.
We knew the medication could cause complications, but we also knew it might give him a chance.
So we took that risk.
My phone is always on, and I made it very clear to his doctors that if he got into trouble, they should end his suffering and not wait for me.
Thankfully, he did well.
His gut is moving again—slowly, but it is moving.
We’re waiting for another update this afternoon.
Thank you for staying here with us through the hard days, the hopeful days, the losses, and the small victories.
More updates soon.❤️