09/08/2025
When things don’t work out…
You win some, you lose some.
And I just lost.
But I’m ok with that.
You see, if I never lost, it would mean I never took risks.
The Barbie Bash throwback is being cancelled, or perhaps postponed until the spring.
What happened?
Enough tickets didn’t sell in the amount of time I needed them to in order to continue moving forward with this event.
I think it was a multitude of factors, but at the end of the day I did not have the capacity to pull off an event of this size in such a short amount of time.
I am still deep in grief over losing my Nan. Finding it difficult to function if I don’t keep myself very busy.
The pain is unbearable anytime my mind is quiet enough to remember. And so, I push forward and keep myself busy so my mind doesn’t have the chance to be quiet.
Until bedtime. Then I’m riddled with anxiety and struggle to sleep.
It’s not a healthy pattern, and I am addressing it.
But for now, all of this means I just can’t pull off this event.
And the people helping me are going through their own stuff (aren’t we all?!). So it is not fair for me to put the success of this event entirely on their shoulders.
Events take a special kind of energy that my other work does not require. And I simply don’t have it to give right now.
Sometimes, as a leader, (often, actually) we have to make tough decisions.
This was one of those decisions I had to make.
For a fleeting moment I thought “What will people think? Will they think I’m a flake?”
Thankfully my immediate next thought is, it doesn’t matter.
If you think I’m a flake, that’s ok with me.
Really, I’m just a human who wanted to create an Unforgettable experience, supporting a cause I care deeply about, but just did not have the capacity to pull it off at this time.
What I’ve learned through this is…
LISTEN TO MY GUT.
Every time. No matter what.
Deep down I knew this wasn’t going to work. But I decided to try.
If you took the time to read this, I hope it encourages you to realize it’s ok to fail. It’s ok to fail publicly. Failure makes you stronger. Failure teaches you lessons you won’t get otherwise.
Failure means you’re trying. And that’s what counts.
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