10/17/2025
slow mornings...for real
Luna + Monty are visiting their grandparents for the week. So, I've only had Cleo + Jimmy Jones. And it's been SO QUIET.
For months now, I've been quite overwhelmed with my wife and mom duties. We're in a hard season and nothing I was doing was helping. I was actually kind of losing my mind. I felt stressed every single day. It was getting really bad.
My friends have been asking me how it is only have the two kids and if things are easier this week. They aren't. Without my older two around to help me out, I'm doing a lot more. But I feel so much better and I never expected the reason why.
I said it is so much quieter without all four kids. But it's like a silence I forgot existed. My younger two have been getting along so well. And my house sounds and feels peaceful again. I feel at peace again. My mind isn't cloudy and full of noise like it had been for months.
Now, I love my kids and a reasonable amount of noise and chaos is to be expected. But things had been worse than that. My house became a place my children owned, instead of me. I had become too lenient about so many things. I think one of the hardest parts of parenting is finding the balance between discipline/routine and free living fun.
I am relishing today and tomorrow before we go pick up my older kids. But things will not be going back to "normal". There will be a family meeting to discuss changes and ways to help keep this mama from spiraling out again.
These things are a big reason I have been so inconsistent on here for a while. I think we can all agree this app doesn't always add peace and quiet to our minds. And maybe only 10 of you will see this. My hope is that it's the 10 of you who need to see you're not alone in all this.
I don't expect you to share your current hard stuff (but you definitely can) but if you're currently going through a hard time or have gone through one before, comment any color heart and help others know they're not alone in this. π©·
