11/29/2025
The contractor quoted me eight thousand dollars to fix our crumbling walkway, and I knew we didn't have it the same week my husband lost his job.
I stood there staring at the broken concrete, feeling like it was mocking everything else falling apart in our lives. Twenty-three years of marriage, and suddenly we couldn't afford to fix the path leading to our own front door. The symbolism wasn't lost on me.
"We'll just have to live with it," Mike said, his voice flat in that way that meant he was trying not to break down in front of me. At fifty-one, he'd never been unemployed, never had to worry about things like walkway repairs becoming impossible luxuries.
But I couldn't live with it. Every time I looked at those jagged cracks, I saw everything we couldn't control, everything slipping through our fingers. The house was becoming a daily reminder of our failure to keep up.
That's when desperation made me creative. I remembered seeing concrete leaf stepping stones in a gardening group, and something about making something beautiful from scratch appealed to me. I found real leaves in our backyard - massive rhubarb leaves that had been growing wild for years.
The process was messier than I expected. Mixing concrete in wheelbarrows, pressing leaves into wet cement, praying each one would turn out right. I bought the concrete mix and sealant from a local crafter on Tedooo app who specialized in garden projects, and she walked me through the whole process over messages when I panicked about the mixture being too thick.
Mike came home from another failed job interview to find me arranging these leaf-shaped stones along our broken walkway. For the first time in weeks, I saw him actually smile. "How much did this cost us?" he asked, expecting bad news.
"Forty-three dollars," I said, watching his face change completely.
Now we have this gorgeous pathway that looks like something from a design magazine, made from leaves that were already in our yard and concrete we could actually afford. Our friends keep asking who designed it, and I tell them desperation and YouTube tutorials.
Sometimes when everything feels broken, you discover you can build something better with your own hands. Mike starts his new job Monday, but even when we can afford to hire people again, I think I'll keep making things myself.