03/31/2016
Dreamer by Reel Talque
I can't get you out of my head
Instead, you are all I dream about when I go to bed.
I mean, they say I'm a dreamer
But it feels like I'm the only one
I would consider myself a hopeless romantic
But, romantically speaking I'm beginning to hope less
Before you get depressed, let me explain...
See, in Bloomington Normal I was born and raised and in a class room is where I spent most of my days
Doing p.e., math, and tryna make friends all the while staying up to date with the latest trends
But see I was never quick enough, I never had the right stuff.
I would put myself out there with an attitude of "I don't care" but I did...
Each fall hurt more than the first, and now, it's only getting worse because...
Because now, I'm at the age where my friends are pairing up and if it works anything like Bluetooth then I guess my signal isn't strong enough
But don't get me wrong though...I'm happy for my friends because I knew they'd all pair up in the end.
I just didn't expect to become so depressed that mentally I start to recess until, in my head, there's nothing left, and my heart beat slows inside my chest steadily putting me rest which is beginning to feel like what's best because who would want to date someone so hopeless that they drive themselves to hope less
"Have a more positive outlook Reel Talque"
"Your time will come Reel Talque"
When, in the history of encouragement, has that ever helped? Like I know you're trying but if I said it made me feel better I'd be lying
However, when I go to bed and I'm just trying...trying to make sense of it all, I'm reminded of three truths: 1) that going through hardships means I'm loved, 2) that I'm never alone, and 3) that there is a plan bigger than my own.
Like I hinted, this singleness is hard, especially when you personify relationships to be a person and they only visit once a month while you're chained up behind bars
But see one day, I'll break free
And there'll be nothing left holding me
Back from the blissful opportunity
Of joining in forever unity
With someone who likes what I'm about
Both inside and out
Like I said, I might be the only dreamer
But I'll put my hope in my Redeemer
..ReelTalque