08/05/2024
Time and photographs are so strange. A single photo could bring you right back to the pain or pleasure of any moment.
These photos are a decade apart to the day and I had to take a second to appreciate the wave of emotionās.
So many things are the same about me and yet nothingās the same at all š„¹
Iām so f*cking proud of the many lives Iāve lived, the many mountains Iāve sumitted alone, and the many faces that have come to pass, especially the ones that have stayed and have taught me so much.
Many days I felt like this lost, little kid, drowning⦠searching for something greater outside of myself.
But through many seasons of life I finally realized that the real magic is in acceptance and that what Iād been searching for was always within myself.
As a kid I remember my dad always saying āAlicia, you can pick the easy door or the hard doorā, my answer was always the same āwell whatās behind the hard door?ā Out of sheer curiosity and rebellion, and heād always get so mad, screaming āthatās not the point!ā But looking back, it kinda was.
I always wanted to do things my way and though many moments came back to smack me in the face, itās made me who I am.
I used to kick myself for that same stubbornness and the attitude of āF you- Iām learning for myselfā, but now I canāt help but chuckle at the memory or be more grateful for my journey.
Itās taught me about more pain and suffering than I couldāve ever imagined but itās also propelled me to this moment of clarity and abundance and each day just brings more gifts š„¹
Iāve learned that not everything life has to throw at you deserves a reaction, I began savoring the small things as if they were the last bits of chocolate on this earth, I let emotions come and go, like the ebb and flow of a soft wave, and Iāve made it a personal goal to find joy in every moment; especially the hard ones, because ultimately theyāre temporary and teach you the most.
But most importantly⦠Iāve learned to laugh⦠at everything. In love and in sorrow.
This change in mindsets set my spirit free and lit my soul on fire and I canāt help but stare at this younger version of myself and just love her that much harder.
Shes got a lot of work ahead of her, but sheāll get through it.
So thankful for this life and to forever be the trippy lil pea in one far out pod, manš« loving life for everything that it is and finally at peace.
Cheers to growth, my friends. Itās pretty rad.