12/23/2025
Friends, this is really hard to admit but I’m at a crossroads. I’ve gone into significant debt trying to keep the show afloat with only a disability check and my health has been significantly impacted this year, from which I’m still trying to recover.
I can’t keep up The Silenced Voices of MST. All year I’ve missed speaking engagements, events, and all kinds of deadlines. I had volunteers briefly but most dipped without saying anything or doing anything, and the few that remained I can barely delegate to because I’m still trying to do everything else.
This really comes down to two things:
1. Money
2. Interest
As much as I would like to get military sexual trauma into public discourse, it’s something that literally no one wants to think about unless it’s affected them or a loved one.
I have run the show on about $3K monthly with my actual living expenses like rent, utilities, and gas, I’ve chosen sleep over dinner to pay for hosting fees, Canva, email marketing subscription plans, extra security features for my guests safety, and editing software, business taxes and licensing fees, and much more. Many times this year, I chose paying for something show-related rather than buying gas. I don’t even pay for ads which are necessary to find an audience because I can’t.
Often I skid to the end of the month with negative dollars in my accounts and then start back on that hamster wheel when the 1st of the month comes around again. My cards are maxed out, my hair is falling out, and I have broken out in all other kinds of stress responses including repeat illness.
One of my guests once quoted that movie line in an episode, “If you build it, they will come.” And I took it on as an affirmation. I believed that if I just kept grinding, this mission would eventually take on a life of its own.
The reality is: it hasn't. And I can no longer do this alone.
This is my passion and the opportunity to do some real good in the world is there, but I can’t do this alone. A podcast typically has a staff of about 15-20 people.
I am one, and I am exhausted. My skin did not look like this at the beginning of the year.
I’m being real with you because I need help.
I am setting a goal of $25,000. This goal will allow me to:
Hire a Virtual Assistant: So I can finally delegate the administrative weight and focus on advocacy and my health.
Clear the Debt: Address the personal debt incurred while keeping this show alive solo.
Keep the Mic On: To ensure the show has a sustainable future with a solid foundation.
If this work has ever moved you, I am asking for your support.
If you can share this post: You are helping us find the audience and support that is desperately needed