06/06/2025
111 โโโ It's not that I personally believe tarot is, was or has been wrong or inaccurate or that what I learned wasn't beneficial to me or the collective in the spaces I or we were in but that the price it inflated to wasn't worth the price that I was and have paid with and in my heart, my soul and my body, in my mind, and in my spirit and my life or others around me too. What I now know as God presenting me with a new path, a new opportunity to gain the truth I (and what I believe we) have been seeking - my heart instantly resonated with this offer of disconnect and expansion unlike anything I knew (peace, euphoria, freedom further than even the knowledge or percieved empowerment new age brought me) and I also knew this meant everything would begin to change in my life from the inside out. Spirit showed me truth as I shifted out of a space where I wholeheartedly felt with everything in me that it was time to divest and develop my connection to the divine more organically than I had been. Through tarot I attempted (and succeeded many, many times) to search the universes and empower myself and others through tools which ultimately dissuaded us from our own organic, true, natural and innate connection to the divine - again, not that these tools didn't bring us to the spaces we've advanced to now but, 12:44 on the clock as I profess this to you, God has since brought me to an understanding that has far exceeded what I thought I was seeking all along ~ and as much as I denied my own eyes, as much as I closed my heart to this truth - in my passion to keep my heart open to all and absolute truth - it all, always led me back to him, back to Christ [and God of the bible] and his deeper truth. I had unequivocally reached the point of no return, the patterns, signs, syncronicties flooded my reality like I'd taken the deepest dive and been submerged into the core of the universe itself. I don't feel regretful, nor shameful for my journey and the empowerment God gifted me through these spaces as I wouldn't be who I am today nor hold the knowledge and perspectives that only helped me understand the greater truth of all that IS. I see our shared and special journey through Tarot as a prerequisite to understanding the precise expanse of where Spirit is guiding OUR collective and those whom we journeyed these spaces with and in that respect, I am deeply honored to have and have had the opportunity to grow with you all! I was stagnant and in a place of denial for a long time and after a series of revelations both terrible and wonderful, I learned to surrender - when I set myself to the side and was willing to embrace the internal and external opposition of my then current foundations - I not only learned but, accepted the truth. It washed over me like a peace I've never known before, in that moment the changes were solidified and I knew I would never go back. Surely not in the same ways and with my renewed understanding in demystifying complexities I'd stumbled over for years in these aforementioned spaces. I had found what I and what I believe the collective has been looking for all along...Holy Spirit tells me this is where the greater journey is just beginning!
