10/31/2025
I can’t believe that today marks an entire year without you. I think of you every day and talk to you and hear your words back to me. Your big brother advice is still to kick ass and dont let anything or anyone get in the way. My heart breaks because I miss your smile, your sarcasm, your advice, your feistiness and your beautiful brotherly soul. I miss our late night and very early morning talks of our precious memories and hopes and dreams for the future alongside your bed. I miss pushing you in the wheel chair on our morning walks and you calling me from your room to make you your favorite French toast recipe from Nana Banana. I miss hearing your “Good morning beautiful sistahhhh” every single morning when coming to bring you your meds I could go on and on as there wasnt a single day that I didn’t adore spending time with you. I love you more than words could ever say. But today I am celebrating your life and not your passing as I know you would kick my ass if I didn’t. I can hear you now.. Renee wipe those tears away and Pull your big girl panties up. You know who you are and where we came from and we don’t play that way.. he always knew how to motivate me by either threatening to kick my ass or tickle torture me until I peed my pants. (True story lol) I love you Jay from the bottom of my heart. I know you are flying high with our loved ones and watching over all of us and guiding us to happiness. I feel your strength in me when I need a good swift quick in the ass…. And help me Not to cry over you but to “Live Like I Love Life “. Until we meet again brother. Fly high. I love you ❤️
