04/24/2026
For two weeks, my mom had been in and out of the hospital. Her body was frail, her spirit still strong, but I could see the toll the illness had taken. I knew our time together was short, but there was always this spark in her—this glimmer that refused to dim. Even though she was fighting the hardest battle of her life, she was still my mom. The woman who made me laugh, who held me when I cried, and who always knew how to make me feel like everything would be okay.
It was a Sunday night, and I found two documentaries I knew she’d love—one about The Pope and another about The Kennedys. These were two of my mom’s absolute favorites. After all, there was no better way to spend an evening than snuggled in bed, watching her favorite things, and laughing together.
She asked me to get into bed with her, just like we used to when I was younger, during the days when chemo was part of our routine. The nights would often end with us curled up, watching movies, laughing at silly jokes, and sharing those precious moments of peace. But tonight, as I climbed into the hospital bed, I immediately felt how small my mom had become. Her body, once full of life and warmth, had shrunk into something almost unrecognizable. I could feel her bones beneath the thin fabric of her hospital gown, and it broke my heart in ways I couldn’t put into words.
She noticed my silence, the way my face must have betrayed my thoughts. "What are you thinking about?" she asked, and I could hear the curiosity and concern in her voice. She always cared more about how I was feeling than about herself.
I tried to shake off the sadness, the weight of it all, and smiled. "I can’t believe your eyelashes have fully grown in!" I said with a grin, trying to hide the tears that were threatening to fall. I had noticed it, and I thought it was the funniest thing—my mom, with her beautiful lashes, looking like she had just walked out of a salon.
"WHAT?!?" she shrieked, her eyes wide with excitement. "Did you get eyelash extensions? Seriously. Tell me the truth. I won’t tell anyone."
I couldn’t help but laugh. It felt so good to hear her laugh again, even if it was just for a moment. It was the sound I needed—the sound that made everything feel a little more normal. I kept teasing her, trying to play it straight. "You’re lucky I love you, Mom, or else I’d hate you for being THIS gorgeous while in the hospital," I said, trying to sound serious, but the words barely left my lips before I couldn’t hold it in anymore.
She giggled—the kind of giggle that reminded me of the little girl she once was. It was pure joy, and it lit up the room. Her whole face lit up like the Rockefeller Tree at Christmas, and I saw something in her eyes that I hadn’t seen in so long—joy, real joy. It was as if the weight of everything fell away, just for that moment.
I gently rubbed her tiny, bald head, the way she always liked when I did. She said it took away her anxiety. The act felt so familiar, so comforting, that for a moment, I didn’t feel like I was losing her. She was still my mom, and I was still her child.
I pulled back, trying to look serious again, but the joy in her face was impossible to ignore. "When were you going to tell me YOUR HAIR’S grown back, as thick and shiny as ever?!?"
She tilted her head to the side, blinking those long lashes, her smile still radiant. "What can I say? I’m a lucky ducky," she teased, trying to taunt me with her “supermodel” look.
I could feel my heart swelling, the pain of watching her struggle in the hospital room fading, if only for a moment. Her happiness was contagious. My soul felt full of her light, and I couldn’t help but smile.
We settled in, watching those documentaries together, side by side, just like we used to. I kept stealing glances at her, watching her smile. It was in that moment, as I looked at her radiant face, that I realized something. My mom had won her battle with cancer. Not because she was physically healed, but because she had faced this challenge with a heart full of love, laughter, and grace. She had fought with everything she had, and even though she was about to take her final breath in just a few days, she had won.
Her strength, her joy, her love—those things would never leave me. They had been woven into every moment we had spent together, every laugh we shared, and every time she had held my hand through life’s challenges.
The next few days were hard, but in that moment, I held onto the pure joy of our time together. And when she passed, I knew that her love would continue to guide me. She had given me the greatest gift of all—the gift of laughter, even in the hardest of times.