Up from the Ashes

03/22/2024

Ceasing all activity on Up from the Ashes until further notice. Currently going through some s**t... Will update you if and when I come out the other side.

Wish me luck.

02/20/2024

02/20/2024

02/20/2024

I scheduled out a bunch of tumblr posts, but then didn't cross-post them here due to being rather occupied visiting my daughter. I'm catching up on that today.

02/15/2024

02/15/2024

Hello everyone,

I know I've been saying it for a long time, but I finally really truly am coming back to this blog and my channel. Officially. For real. I finally figured out a plan that I can use to commit myself to doing this.

I'd like to make an announcement video explaining what I've been up to, my plans for the channel. etc. I'd imagine I can get that going within a few weeks, BUT my bf is so busy I don't wanna bother him for video editing help, so heck-yeah-learning-adobe-by-brute-force-let's-go!

Stay strong everyone, and know that you are worthy of love. I mean it.

01/24/2024

"Many of us have been told that it is 'all in our heads' or that there is something wrong or inaccurate with our thoughts and beliefs. These viewpoints invalidate our experience. The effect is that we learn not to trust ourselves..."

- from The Expanded Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Training Manual by Lane Pederson and Cortney Sidwell Pederson

01/10/2024

I finally came up with a system for keeping my house clean! At least for the daily upkeep. Look at my kitchen! It's so clean!

12/29/2023

I was talking to my best friend last night, and they revealed to me that, back when they were actually talking to my abusive ex at the beginning of our relationship, he used to try to get them to say things to me on his behalf - things that served to control and debase me, but which sounded, to the casual observer, like genuine concerns he had.

My friend refused to do so - they were, in fact, the only one of my friends not to fall for his lies.

This does confirm, though, a suspicion I had for years that he was intentionally driving people away from me - this friend is the second person who has come to me saying that my ex was talking about me behind my back.

But really, the point of this post is to give my friend a huge shout-out for being both incredibly loyal and a huge part of why I was ever able to escape that relationship.

12/22/2023

Sometimes, though certainly not all the time, being in balance means being out of balance. Life is not perfect, and you are not a robot.

12/11/2023

A quote from my DBT Workbook:

"Do not engage in unneeded apologetic behavior. Do not apologize for having an opinion or for your own viewpoints. You are allowed to disagree. Do not apologize for being you. Avoid apologies for things over which you have no control." - The Expanded Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Training Manual by Lane Pederson with Cortney Sidwell Pederson

Just thought you ought to know that you do not need to apologize for being human :)

12/05/2023

Someone tagged me in a post on Tumblr as a blog they think is wonderful!!

12/05/2023

Holy crap!

10/31/2023

It apparently didn't post my comment? But I was working on a script the other night.

10/31/2023

I will repeat: YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE!

10/31/2023

Take care of yourself first, even when it's hard