Jim’s Step Foward

11/04/2024

Someone said someone should use their brain and not their looks. Well for me, I would much prefer to have any looks to use as opposed to goals that may not happen. I was just as judged on intelligence as I am looks. I never imagined I had looks and I’d love to explore it.

11/04/2024

Despite other people causing me to feel unwanted and the criticism, I'm going to let you say whatever you want and just focus on my needs. I appreciate those who care and am grateful for the positive things happening. Say whatever you want and I'll still be kind.

11/04/2024

Before you judge someones emotional stability it's important to understand the impetus for it. For example, receiving an email about something very personal on an app I sell art on. It's also important to look for similar phrases being discussed. It's also important to know the person has tried for years to be friendly and agreeable and the same negative stuff happens. Anyway have a great day.

11/03/2024

I often wonder if my future holds more of the same or more of what makes me happy. My dreams have turned to nightmares with no one is here to hold me and tell me it’s going to get better. No one is there to tell me the pain is going to turn to pleasure. I don’t know how to make it better but it has to because this life isn’t worth living.

Here’s to hope for a better future.

10/18/2024

10/15/2024

I have been asking myself what might happen if people sat down and discussed all areas of contention and took responsibility for their actions. I know I’d certainly like it. I might even pull back on some of my social media posts if compromise and equitable treatment was included in the agreement.

I know some people and even I admit my faults as I discover them and am actively work to improve on it.

Last post of today. Hopefully any adults experiencing this can act like they’re understanding and flexible or can at least admit they play a role in the dysfunction. I know in my case I’m sure im part of the problem.

10/13/2024

Thanks to all the people who care. I’ll create more content soon. Good night.

10/12/2024

More poems to share, but I worked today. Stay tuned. I’m figuring something out. Good night.

10/11/2024

More posts to come. I’m working on them now. Please have a good night and be well.

And to anyone out there that knows of me or knows me please straighten everything out. I’m becoming more hopeless and bitter everytime something happens that I said no more to. Please fix everything.

10/11/2024

Again, thanks to anyone who cares. I appreciate it.

10/11/2024

Anyone close to me (the one or two I know are) knows I like science fiction and fantasy. I liked Star Trek TNG etc. I am embarrassed to say so because I don’t want to be labeled a geek, but I am I guess.

Anyway, there was an episode tonight where Worf invented a test for an ensign that included blindfolded the ensign and then he proceeded to battle the ensign. Eventually she became tired of the unfair test and spoke up. Worf agreed and he proceeded to tell her to not tolerate unfair tests.

My point is I’m bitter because I gave so much to help people and they’re treating me like crap.

I ask for a fair game and for me to be treated like I matter.

Be well.

10/10/2024

I hope all is well. I erased a post about my feelings but I don’t want to invalidate others who may just be helping.

But I’m bitter about the double standards and I’m very unhappy about the sabotage. Please stop doing that and let me have equal access just like everyone else has. I honestly don’t want to be hyper reactive but please stop treating me like this. It’s very hurtful and unnecessary. I want to enjoy my life and unfortunately it includes stuff people don’t want me to have in my life. There’s so many opportunities to actually help me besides that.

All best and I hope everyone is well.