02/06/2022
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On the day the world ends and we die, which we all do. I want it to be lying next to you. I like to think I am a warrior for love. Even though it is harder to hold onto than Iβd like to believe. I feel safe in your arms and when I look into your eyes. I hope that you can be the best you around me. My logic is unconventional and I know Iβm far from perfect but you helped me find the God I have rejected for so long because I felt unworthy. You loving me helped me see how I havenβt loved myself enough like I liked to believe and your faith in God made mine stronger. I believe God brought us together because we are so alike and I want to share everyday with you even if we some days are harder and especially the nights. I am primitive and logical but more spiritual now than ever. I wanted to push people out far from my life who judged me on how I look. Or judged me and said they loved me. I wanted to make things a little more difficult because Iβm being alone I got addicted to it. I got addicted to the unhealthy way I challenge myself and hurt myself deeper but in a beautiful way because it does make me grow but in my hurt I became someone who is hard to love but when I met you i knew you were different. Please donβt ever go, everyone always leaves. My scars I were proud for each one blesses me, ti become a better version than I was before, it is my warpaint. I am tired of living in war. It is rooted deep, It is my Japanese mask of a laid-back samurai heart spirit within me. I didnβt even think much about them until I saw yours. I knew you were the one when I looked in your eyes. I just followed my heart and it has been right so far but it has made a lot of issues come to surface that really tests us and our faith in one another and God but if we can get through conquering our pasts together we are unstoppable. Iβm tired of hurting, I want love. Some days will be harder than others but I wonβt ever give up on you.
