12/19/2025
I used to pride myself on being “self-aware.”
Anytime something hurt, I analyzed it.
Anytime I felt emotional, I minimized it.
Anytime my body sent a signal, I talked myself out of it.
I told myself I was being rational.
Balanced.
Mature.
But the truth was harder to admit.
I had learned to gaslight myself so well that I didn't even notice I was doing it.
I mistook conditioning for growth.
I mistook emotional suppression for strength.
I mistook self-abandonment for emotional intelligence.
Human Design was the first framework that didn’t ask me to control my emotions —
it taught me how to understand them.
Some emotions need time.
Some emotions aren’t even yours.
Some feelings are information, not problems.
The moment I stopped questioning my own inner experience, my nervous system exhaled.
If you’ve been second-guessing yourself for years…
If you’ve learned to distrust what you feel just to survive…
There is nothing wrong with you.
Decode Your Centers helps you understand how your emotions actually work — without fixing yourself.
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