08/28/2020
People have been commenting lately on my recent weight loss, which made me think, “I haven’t written an annoyingly long post on IG in a while...”
Sometimes, the challenge is being happy first. Can you be happy before you have your goal body? Before you make the money or buy the house or grow the business? Before you have the soul mate and the family and the lifestyle? Can you be happy now, can you be happy first, without the things?
I’ve always been so jealous of those women who seem to eat effortlessly. You know the ones I’m talking about - super svelte and still always drinking wine, eating bread, and finishing their dessert?
I’ve lost a lot of weight over the past 4 months. And I’ve done it while drinking wine, eating bread and finishing all of my desserts...
It didn’t just happen naturally though. It’s been a lot of work.
I got into therapy. I hired a dietician . I removed someone from my life who was wasting my resources. I adopted a puppy in need. I worked overtime at my business, and I started making sure I’m always doing one project that is helping people.
I stopped drinking as much. I stopped spending time with people who don’t value me. I stopped pursuing clients who don’t value the work I do. I started saying “no” a lot more, and I stopped second guessing myself as much. I made friends with my intuition.
I started eating everything I love - including all the dessert. I started prioritizing eating the foods my body wants to eat instead of the ones my anxiety is telling me I need to eat to stay fit.
And I started losing weight. And I’m still losing weight.
The importance has shifted for me. Food is not the focus. Meeting a physique goal is not the focus. My body is what enables me to meet life goals. It is not the goal in and of itself. I have no idea how much I weigh right now or what clothing size I am.
If you’re still reading this, you know that we’re never done. I have just begun to learn how to be happy first. It’s a process. I won’t ever be done learning about the process.
But I know what it feels like now. It’s everything.