10/04/2026
I said that I was going to stop writing.
I'm not a poet, story writer or a songwriter.
But, Jessie was pretty sick with her respiratory disease last night. I decided to pick up something I started a few months ago and finish it ..
You said that I was not normal and unkind. I am not a good person.
This picture of me in your mind ...
Sometimes the world can be unkind. And even more so when we let anger paint a picture in our mind..
I want to be mad at you for all you said, yet inside those words are some truths that are stuck in my head...
I am not normal, compared to everyone else, but if you looked underneath the strange, you will find just a girl who loves God and let's Satan put doubt in a playground in my mind.
A girl, who would rather be outside in staring at a plant in the wild, wondering on this did our ancestors survive.
A girl just looking up at a cloud just talking away to God in my mind.
Asking him why, I've never been to others exactly right..
I am the girl who walks the path alone because you are not the first to say that I'm not very nice. And, this maybe true. But, I refuse to be branded unkind. If I keep to myself, the world can not misunderstand my words, they can't get offended by what I speak.
I know at times I'm not always nice, but I don't want nor will I accept the label of unkind..
Unkind is making a coworker mad and they try to for an alliance of others against you.
Unkind is people only talking to me, when they think you cannot see it or hear it. Because they know you will be mad about it..
That has less to do with me or you. More about they have insecurities too
Unkind is a biological father who never excepted me.
Unkind is not taking taking the time to pray for those who I have hurt or caring that my words hurt
I am far from perfect and I don't understand why I am the way I am.
I wish, I could undo any hurt I caused anyone that's including you.
And you and the rest of the world may judge me for being not normal and that's ok too. Because, that's who I am and I'm sorry that I have hurt any of you.
I won't stop praying for God to heal your heart, I won't stop praying for God to work on me and make me more mindful of what I say or do.
Maybe, that's not normal and that's ok too ...