Nikki Baltusis: Faith, Neurodivergence & Complex Health

07/06/2026

Today I'm launching a little space for my long-form content and musings. If you like my writing, storytelling, hearing about my favorite teas, encouragement for your faith journey, and so much more--I would love for you to join me! You can subscribe for free, though I will be giving free downloads each month and publishing content only for subscribers. So for the cost of a cup of tea, just $5/month, you will have access to everything I share! I hope you'll join me for this new season. :) ☕️

I can't wait to get to know you better!

05/29/2026

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05/28/2026

Autistic joy deserves more attention.

The deep interests.
The excitement.
The creativity.
The noticing details others miss.
The passion.
The sincerity.

Neurodivergence is not only struggle. There is so much beauty to be found too!

05/27/2026

The older I get, the more I realize Jesus valued people for who they were, not for how productive they could be.

That changes how I see disability, rest, and worth.

Growing up, I did not have a diagnosis of any kind and I had zero understanding about how my brain was wired or how my body worked (or didn't work), which left a lot of room for pain and suffering.

It also led to me compensating for my weaknesses and deficits however I could. I apologized a lot for things, looking back, that I probably didn't need to. I learned to people-please so that nobody would ever be disappointed.

I thought the more I could do, the more value I had.

But as my complex medical conditions progressed, I could no longer serve at the level I had in a younger body. This slowly chipped away at the level of value I believed I had.

Every "no" led to feeling even less self-worth. Every person I disappointed made me feel more disappointed with my brain and my body.

As I've learned to accept the state of my body and my brain wiring and was forced to rest, I learned that saying "no" didn't have any attachment to my value. I learned that when I said "no" when I really needed to, I actually felt better about myself. I felt like I was finally honoring my body, which had been begging me to listen for years.

The more I learn about disability (visible and invisible), the more I realize that it's okay to admit that I have deficits. They do not disqualify me from living my very best life! I can ask for accommodations. I can meet my own needs, and not feel ashamed for having them.

Jesus values us all equally. In the Kingdom of Heaven, there are no deficits. Just a crazy amount of love. :)

05/26/2026

I spent so many years believing I was “too sensitive.”

Too sensitive to noise.
Too sensitive emotionally.
Too sensitive to foods, smells, medications, stress, lights, crowds…

Turns out a lot of that was neurodivergence, a dysregulated nervous system, and complex medical conditions.

I get that so many people are against diagnoses. Christians especially seem to have a hard time with "labels". As a Christian myself, I understand not wanting to live with anything as our identity other than being a child of God.

But I actually believe that a diagnosis can become a doorway.

I've seen firsthand how a diagnosis can be a doorway to help, resources, community, and a deeper understanding of our own selves.

Understanding yourself gives you the ability to change shame into compassion. Compassion eventually makes way to acceptance. And when someone is the best, healed version of themself, they are unstoppable!

So if you've been nervous to pursue a diagnosis, I hope you'll think about my words. A diagnosis does not equal identity. You can have a diagnosis here on Earth but still be a child of God now and eternally. We are in finite bodies that started decaying the moment we were born. Everything will one day pass away--but our spirits will live on forever. Wouldn't you like to access the healthiest version of your spirit that you can? Do you truly believe that Jesus wants you to live life in abundance?

You are worthy of answers. You are worthy of compassion for yourself. You deserve to learn how to accept yourself.

And perhaps a diagnosis is the first step. 💕

04/03/2026

My son sprawled on my bed next to me this morning and asked, “Why do they call it ‘Good Friday’? Seems like it should be called ‘Bad Friday.’”

I nodded my head in agreement. “It does seem that way, doesn’t it?” I went on to explain why we call it “Good” instead of “Bad”.

I explained that because of Jesus’ great love He gave His life for us. In the moment, it seemed bad. He endured great pain to take on all the wrong things we have done. He did that for US! He did it so that we could be with Him in Heaven one day and so that we could have a better quality of life here on Earth. He took our place so that He could hold us in His arms now and into eternity. That is GOOD news! That’s a Good Friday indeed!

I don’t know where your life is at today. Maybe things feel bad, painful, or even bleak. Perhaps you’re looking at your own life wondering how God could ever pick up all these pieces and turn it all into something good.

But if He did it with Jesus, He can do it with you too! It just takes a step of faith—10 seconds of bravery—to ask Him to be your very best friend. Invite Him to make a home in your heart. Tell Him you’re sorry for the things you’ve done, and thank Him for taking it all the cross. Then, join your local church to CELEBRATE with others who have done the same on Sunday morning! And if you don’t have a local church, message me so I can celebrate with you! 🎉

Because spoiler alert, Jesus didn’t stay in the grave. Death could not hold Him! 3 days after He took the nails, He rolled away the stone and walked out of a tomb, just like He said He would. Brand new. Clean. And His love will do the very same thing for you. 🙂

Let this be the last “Bad Friday” you ever experience. Just watch what my Jesus can do in your life!!!!! 💕💕💕

02/14/2026

I think that 3rd reason is the biggest reason that keeps people away from the dentist. 😢

What tips and tricks to you use to make the dentist office a better experience?

02/04/2026

My todder either hates me or loves me. Haha. But when she loves me, oh boy!
Watch out! 💁🏻‍♀️

02/03/2026

Don’t take your spiritual advice from the internet! The algorithm will steer you wrong. Here’s a healthy spiritual decision-making process you can try if you are a Christian. 💕

02/02/2026

Sharing a long form video about where things are at in my life. I hope you will join me on this wild journey! :)