22/07/2025
I gave birth three months ago. About two months after the delivery, my husband started requesting for S£x. One weekend afternoon, he tried to touch me again, and I told him I wasn’t ready. His mood changes, he removed my clothes by and said I was always giving excuses. He took me outside to the backyard of our house and locked the door behind me. I was completely without clothes aside my underwears. He told me he was tired of my constant rejecti0n and that he wouldn’t let me back inside the house until I agreed to sleep with him. I begged him but he didn’t open the door. I was so ẽmbařraśsėd and br0ken.
After some time, I gave in. I bänġed the door and told him I would do it. That’s when he opened the door. When we had şęx, I just laid there ċrýing quietly. It was paîñful. I wasn’t ready at all.
Afterward, he acted like nothing seri0us had happened. He even said, "You see, it wasn’t that bad." I was just quiet. The days after, he kept asking again. I kept saying no. Then he came to apologize and said he was just frűstråted and at his breaking point, that he didn’t mean to hurt me, but as a man, he has needs and feels like we’re drifting apart.
The thing is, I depend on him fully. He takes care of everything, rent, food, bills, the baby. I’m not working at the moment, and I don’t have any family support where I live. I haven’t told anyone about what happened because I feel so ashamed and c0nfused.
I’ve been thinking about div0rce lately, but I don’t even know where to start. I keep wondering if I’m overreacting or if this is something I can manage for now while I try to get back on my feet. But what happened still haunts me. I don’t feel safe. I don’t feel respected. I feel like I was forced.
Please, what would you do if you were in my shoes? Should I leave now, or should I stay a little longer and prepare myself before taking any big decision? I’m scared for my future and my baby.