08/18/2026
I have never talked about my mental health here, so bear with me.
I set a goal for myself this year to replace my photography studio income with UGC and Content creation and close my studio but, I haven’t even come close to making that happen. Not only did my photography business slow down, but I stopped pitching and reaching out to brands. I tried pivoting my content, and honestly, I just got lost.
I’ve always shared my health journey openly, but what I haven’t shared is my mental health. I’ve been called names online, been told my children don’t deserve to be here because they are IVF that I shouldn’t want to grow my family because I suffer from infertility, and I didn’t want to share that after my last round of IVF failed, that I struggled. I just kept showing up online like nothing happened.
The truth is, I have really good days, and really bad days just like anyone, but after I lost Everston, I got some help, but after the plane crash, and losing James Ryan, Harrison, Laura & Ryan, I needed more help, and honestly, still haven’t recovered.
Now that the girls are back at school and I HAVE to be up at 6am, I promised myself I would work at getting back into shape, physically and mentally, but it’s still a struggle.
I started sharing my journey on social media so other women who are experiencing loss and IVF wouldn’t feel so alone, to have an ally, so even though my journey has shifted, I’ll keep showing up. Because it’s not always rainbows and butterflies, and it’s ok to share that I’m struggling mentally since my last round of IVF didn’t work. I’ll keep showing up- on the good days and bad days. #