05/08/2024
Time and photographs are so strange. A single photo could bring you right back to the pain or pleasure of any moment.
These photos are a decade apart to the day and I had to take a second to appreciate the wave of emotion’s.
So many things are the same about me and yet nothing’s the same at all 🥹
I’m so f*cking proud of the many lives I’ve lived, the many mountains I’ve sumitted alone, and the many faces that have come to pass, especially the ones that have stayed and have taught me so much.
Many days I felt like this lost, little kid, drowning… searching for something greater outside of myself.
But through many seasons of life I finally realized that the real magic is in acceptance and that what I’d been searching for was always within myself.
As a kid I remember my dad always saying “Alicia, you can pick the easy door or the hard door”, my answer was always the same “well what’s behind the hard door?” Out of sheer curiosity and rebellion, and he’d always get so mad, screaming “that’s not the point!” But looking back, it kinda was.
I always wanted to do things my way and though many moments came back to smack me in the face, it’s made me who I am.
I used to kick myself for that same stubbornness and the attitude of “F you- I’m learning for myself”, but now I can’t help but chuckle at the memory or be more grateful for my journey.
It’s taught me about more pain and suffering than I could’ve ever imagined but it’s also propelled me to this moment of clarity and abundance and each day just brings more gifts 🥹
I’ve learned that not everything life has to throw at you deserves a reaction, I began savoring the small things as if they were the last bits of chocolate on this earth, I let emotions come and go, like the ebb and flow of a soft wave, and I’ve made it a personal goal to find joy in every moment; especially the hard ones, because ultimately they’re temporary and teach you the most.
But most importantly… I’ve learned to laugh… at everything. In love and in sorrow.
This change in mindsets set my spirit free and lit my soul on fire and I can’t help but stare at this younger version of myself and just love her that much harder.
Shes got a lot of work ahead of her, but she’ll get through it.
So thankful for this life and to forever be the trippy lil pea in one far out pod, man🫛 loving life for everything that it is and finally at peace.
Cheers to growth, my friends. It’s pretty rad.
