08/16/2026
You know what I’ve really been thinking a lot about lately is I’ve made so many mistakes in my life & I’ve been so damn worried to prove myself but you know what I know my fu***ng heart & the hurt & tears I feel everyday day. Not the the people I’m worried are judging me so I’ve decided I’m letting go for ALL of you who THINK you know what is going go a head keep thinking because I don’t give a F**K anymore. It’s literally killing me & there are only a very few people who truly know me to my core that I can honestly talk to WITHOUT judgement & those are the ones who really know me.
Also to the FAMILY & other who just let me behind because of my mistakes & apparently I’m not worthy of forgiveness that’s ok if you don’t want in my life I don’t want you & I’m done crying & texting. It’s on you.
I had to stop to remember who really loves me!!! My grandpa he loved me so much & he’s always with me watching over & he knew I thought he was disappointed in me but he forgives me because he see how hard I’m trying “ my grandma did the same….
That’s ALL I needed to remind myself because it’s sad that I have to try & beg family still here to forgive me but the only 3 people I’d truly like to talk to are in heaven & when that realization hit me it showed me most people don’t deserve a place in my life because I’m learning to protect me peace. I’m learning I have a voice again & won’t be pushed around
