The Shoemake Journals

The Shoemake Journals Follow our family’s journey of loss, pain, brokenness, hope, redemption and the highs and lows through the loss of my child and my husband. God Bless!

Learning to survive the life we never asked for and finding ourselves in the midst of grief. Thank you for visiting the Leland Shoemake Foundation's page. This page was started in honor of our six-year-old son who passed away September 25, 2015 from a brain eating amoeba called Balamuthia Mandrillaris. He contracted this from playing in the dirt. Please visit our website for more informat

ion and ways to prevent infection. We are a 501(c)3 non-profit public charity. We strive to honor Leland in everything that we do and to keep his memory alive. All of the events that we hold throughout the year go towards helping children in need in the community. We are based out of Pike County, GA and our EIN number is 81-1657862. Any donations made to the Leland Shoemake Foundation are tax deductible. If you are interested in more information about our upcoming events, awareness, are interested in being a sponsor, or if you just want to know more about Leland or our foundation, them please visit the website or contact us directly. Thank you so much for liking our page. Please share the page and any information to help spread awareness and save lives. The name of the organization is Leland Shoemake Foundation Inc. The organization is organized in accordance with the Georgia Nonprofit Corporation Code, as amended. The organization has not been formed for the making of any profit, or personal financial gain. The assets and income of the organization shall not be distributable to, or benefit the trustees, directors, or officers or other individuals. The assets and income shall only be used to promote corporate purposes as described in the articles. Nothing contained herein, however, shall be deemed to prohibit the payment of reasonable compensation to employees and independent contractors for services provided for the benefit of the organization. This organization shall not carry on any other activities not permitted to be carried on by an organization exempt from federal income tax. The organization shall not endorse, contribute to, work for, or otherwise support (or oppose) a candidate for public office. The organization is organized exclusively for purposes subsequent to section 501(c)(3) of the Internal Revenue Code.

I’ve been experiencing a lot of physical symptoms of grief and I want to talk about them and share some encouraging word...
09/05/2025

I’ve been experiencing a lot of physical symptoms of grief and I want to talk about them and share some encouraging words.

Stress and grief can cause physical symptoms like the ones I have been experiencing. These are just a few but there are many. When the body is under prolonged emotional strain, it affects hormones, the nervous system, and even the immune system. Some possible connections:
• Blurred vision & headaches – Grief and stress often trigger tension headaches, migraines, or eye strain. Anxiety can also cause vision changes.
• Chest tightness – Stress and grief can cause muscle tension in the chest, shallow breathing, or even panic-attack–like symptoms.
• Fatigue – Deep grief is physically exhausting. Sleep can be disrupted, and your body is using extra energy to process the loss.

I’ve had memory problems and will even stop talking mid sentence because I’ve either forgotten what I was saying or my thoughts have trailed off to something else. I have no appetite and my skin is breaking out. I know I have inflammation and swelling going on. I’ve been clenching my teeth which isn’t helping the headaches either. I don’t say all of this to get you all to tell me to take care of myself, I’m trying. My body is responding in ways that there is nothing I can do about it. When you lose your world and your very existence, there’s no way to pick up and just keep going. It wrecks you in every way when you lose the most important person in your life.

Some ways I’ve tried to manage these things is with deep breathing, going for a walk, prayer, reading, taking vitamins and supplements, drinking more water, prioritizing protein, journaling and such.

I’ve had to learn to be kind to myself. Grief is not only emotional, it’s deeply physical. My body is telling me it’s carrying a heavy load.

If you’re going through a painful loss here are some encouraging Bible verses.

When you feel exhausted and weak:
👉 “He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.” — Isaiah 40:29 (NLT)
God knows when your strength is gone. He promises to step in where you can’t carry yourself.

When grief feels too heavy to breathe:
👉 “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” — Psalm 34:18 (NLT)
You don’t have to carry the crushing weight alone. He is near, even in the chest tightness, tears, and silence.

When your body feels weary from stress:
👉 “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28 (NLT)
Jesus doesn’t just promise eternal rest, but present rest—deep soul rest that calms the body too.

When you feel overwhelmed:
👉 “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” — Philippians 4:6–7 (NLT)



💙 You’re not weak for having these physical symptoms—your body is grieving just as much as your heart. God sees every ache, every tear, every moment you feel drained. He promises comfort and renewal, even if it comes little by little.

Father God,
My body feels heavy, my mind is tired, and my heart is broken. I miss my husband so deeply, and the grief feels like more than I can carry. The stress is showing up in my body, and I feel worn down in every way.

Lord, I ask You to be my strength when I have none. Calm my racing thoughts, ease the tightness in my chest, and restore peace to my weary soul. You promise to give rest to the weary and to be near to the brokenhearted—so I cling to that promise now.

Surround me with Your presence, Jesus. Breathe Your peace into me. Help me take each day one step at a time, knowing You walk with me. Heal not just my heart but also the toll grief has taken on my body.

Thank You for loving me, holding me, and carrying me through this valley. I trust that You are with me and that You will not let me go.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Verse of the day in the Bible app. God knows I needed it. I have really been struggling and having a lot of stress and a...
09/04/2025

Verse of the day in the Bible app. God knows I needed it. I have really been struggling and having a lot of stress and anxiety taking a toll on me. It’s been a really long time since I’ve had anxiety attacks but they have come back even stronger than before and much more frequent. I have had to escape and just walk outside in order to not let it consume me completely. I feel the overwhelming feeling coming on and the shaking in my hands start, next comes the inability to breathe. All I can do is lace up my shoes and head outside where I walk, inhale deeply, and pray. I have felt so empty and broken since losing Timmy. Just wandering through the days in survival mode with no real direction. A heart that’s broken beyond repair and children who are hurting right along side me, is draining. I don’t know how I’m ever going to survive this but I do know that God’s promises hold true and I hold tightly to that. I’m barely hanging on but I pray daily for God to give me life somehow because I know that He is the only way I’m ever going breathe again.

As Winston Churchill once said, "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."...
09/02/2025

As Winston Churchill once said, "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."

I have faced numerous challenges, losses, and painful experiences, which I must confront daily. Through this journey, I have come to realize that things of this world hold little to no significance. My focus is solely on the next step ahead, as I navigate through uncertainty in the darnkness and with much trembling. Despite hesitancy and confusion, I persevere, relying not on my own strength, but on God's provision of courage to endure and survive the two most painful losses imaginable.

My book is in professional editing as we speak and should be through all of the stages soon. So be ready for a book launch and signing in the near future!

Labor Day. The first trip to the hospital with Leland. The first of many doctors to let us down. September has always be...
09/02/2025

Labor Day. The first trip to the hospital with Leland. The first of many doctors to let us down. September has always been a hard month but this year has been the hardest already and it’s only the first of the month. In another week it will be six months without Timmy and in three weeks it will be the first anniversary death I have to go through without Timmy here to help me get through it. And this year it’s a big one. Ten years without Leland. I honestly don’t know how I’m going to continue to survive this without Timmy. The kids are hurting too and Logan has been struggling a lot. I bought this for him because I want him to know that I’m always here for him. No matter what. Keep us in your prayers please. We need them now, and honestly, we will need them forever.

As I dig another trench in the heat of the day, I question my life choices and look back on all the things I’ve gone thr...
08/31/2025

As I dig another trench in the heat of the day, I question my life choices and look back on all the things I’ve gone through in my life. I look at this peach tree in the distance that we planted the year Leland was born. I remember it curving so much it was splitting, so Timmy took a ratchet strap and held it together. The tree embraced the bandage and grew around it, welcoming it as a permanent bandaid. I noticed the other day the tree is dying and suffering from brown rot. This tree never gave us edible fruit because it never had a friend or partner to help it produce. I reflect on all the blessings God has given me, and Timmy was my biggest one. As the breeze blows to provide a little relief from the sun, I think about how Timmy gave us the perfect life. He and I had the most perfect love. A love most never find in a lifetime. Timmy planted and saved this tree just like he did for me. This tree has been a piece of beauty in our yard for 16 years. But I know it will soon die completely which makes me think of all that we lost with Timmy’s passing. My soul is forever connected with Timmy’s and this tree is a bittersweet memory. All the beauty it once held, just like mine and Timmy’s relationship, soon to wither away just like me. I feel this tree represents me in so many ways. So, today I cry for what has been lost and will never be again, but I’m thankful for God blessing me in the biggest way possible with placing Timmy Shoemake in my life.

I don’t want to go. Not today. It’s the clay shoot at church. I always photograph it and Timmy always registered to shoo...
08/30/2025

I don’t want to go. Not today. It’s the clay shoot at church. I always photograph it and Timmy always registered to shoot. This is the first year he didn’t sign up and I’m having to go without him. Things I once found joy in, I no longer do. I don’t have the energy, the desire, or the capacity to DO and BE who I used to. I plan to stay as long as I can but none of this will be easy. Everything I do, I miss doing with him. It was always me and him no matter what. Everyday hurts and I still can’t accept it. Two days ago I woke up and rolled over, fully expecting to see him lying next to me. My mind had convinced me in my sleep this wasn’t real and he didn’t die. That he was still here. But opening my eyes and looking over, reality confirmed he was in fact gone. Today is another first without him. Another day of pain and missing him. Another day of God lifting me up and pushing me through. Another day closer to him.

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