I'm Da Mama

10/25/2024

🪬No more posting here. I will be doing something else.

Good morning. This is my last post on this page.🥰

Yesterday, I thought of Lori Lee, Valerie Stirm, and my sweet friend, Joy Semelka.🌹🌹🌹

I met all three to varying degrees, here…just as life was shifting for me. I met you all in the midst of the shift. That’s apparent, now.

Today, I’m a Christ follower for sure, but I’m now learning of my ancestral faith, and I’m finally getting ALL my answers.🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

I know why black people knock on wood,
I read the book where most of the world’s proverbs and common sayings come from each morning.

And the Spirit who tells me other folk’s business when it’s having a negative effect on me? I know his name, now. 🙏🏾🕴🏽

I know some side stories about all the religions and see why life is so complicated and uncomfortable nowadays.

There’s little to no proper exchange of energy down here on earth. It’s all take, take, take.

Very little give.🙃
And all things “eat” to survive - even the things I cannot see.
I understand this now…and my offerings aren’t only accepted.

They’re required.
I’m so grateful.

I hope you’re well.
I hope you continue to seek The Most High - Olodumare. There’s nothing wrong or evil with calling God God in Yoruba. Same thing. Unfamiliar because they wanted us to forget over here.

And now I will not.
I wonder if my great, great, great grandparents pronounced it how I am doing. 🥹🥹🥹
I wonder how much joy they’d feel to see me coming back. Coming home.

I wonder how my enslaved ancestors called on God. How many tears they cried. How they feel now, watching the tragedy that’s become us all.

Still…that’s neither here nor there.
The point is…I’ve moved on.

And I’m still the same.
But Christianity isn’t it for me.
Too much lying.
Too much compromising,
Too much murder. And more murder.
Too much inconsistency. Hate that!
Most of all…Hateful judgement against anything not like them…and that’s not me.
At all.

So…thank you for time.
Bless you for our shared history.

I’m going to follow nature, now, since we humans refuse to be the only ones in the kingdom doing our part instinctively. We simply REFUSE.

It’s like we are allergic to iwa pele (good character.) Fruit of the spirit. Integrity. Wholeness. Balance. It goes by many names and more we will never know. I like iwa pele because it reminds me of how much I don’t know and how much more I need to grow.🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

(In Him) we live, move, and have our being means something. And since I’m IN Him, I AM Him. His emissary. His very body part. And all the emissaries need to be diligently lining up.

They won’t tho.😑

And I’m not here to look down on any soul that’s another faith or way of life when it’s clear they have immense love for others and the world in which they live.🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

I. Love. Everyone.
And I detest religion and religious behavior.

To that end, I finally found the place where all the roads meet.

And the Master of the crossroads has never changed. Never will. I’m soooooo happy.🥹🥹🥹

Bless you.
I’m grateful for our time together.
Me and Jesus (Jewesun) are on our final adventure, now.

Ase’.🪬

08/20/2024

Life lately.🥰💸💪🏾
Ixrael is still bombing Palextine.🙃
Mexican Michael.🤣
Murals seen on walks.🥰
One skyline. Mine. I moved. 👸🏽
A chart pattern.🔥
Memories. Sweet memories.😘

05/05/2024

Happening now. 🥺🥺🥺 They are bxmbing (sp for fb) a TENT CITY. 😭😭

Please pray for Palextine. 🙏🏾🙏🏾😭

04/07/2024

Please keep praying for Palestine. Pray for the Israelis who are against the war. Many of them are suffering. 🥺🥺🥺

The media isn’t being honest…because the media isn’t free. It’s been bought - not too many years ago.

So SEEK truth.
And pray.

The bigger person always has a duty. The one with more resources, the one who has been blessed greatly…there’s a huge responsibility…

…and Israel isn’t being honest.
Netanyahu is doing great harm.
Great chaos.
Great evil.

Please pray.
Please use your imagination.
Please meditate.
🤲

These are dark times and it’s our job to BE the light as our Father IS light and IS love.
🥺🥺🥺

This is shameful behavior for all of humanity.
Lord please help us or wrap this up.
Reconcile it all, or help us.

Please!

This is NOT what You intended.
🥺🌹✝️

04/01/2024

Real quick (very random but irksome post to those to whom this applies…)

PLEASE stop calling our Father in Heaven by the name yahweh.

That is NOT God’s name.😩😩😩

It’s a completely different being, who MANY worship. He is the god of this world, and he’s crafty.🤫

He’s the father of lies and liars. He blends fact with fiction to create fiction and lead even the elect astray.

Now, The Most High uses all things. That’s also true. And if I make my bed in hell, Emmanuel is there, too. God is with me and NOTHING can separate me from Him. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

The Most High put a lying spirit in the mouths of the prophets. That’s true, too…but we don’t want to err and worship any lying spirit.🫠

We want to always stay true to the Source…the Father of Jesus Christ, the giver of our precious Holy Spirit…the Being of our being. 🌹✝️🥺🙏🏾

In scripture, the Most High is written as yod hei vav hei.

Here, you’ll see only THREE letters are used.

And it’s a curse.
This being is a hot spirit.
Many would call it a demon.
Solomon knew all these spirits by name and never made the mistakes we are making today.

Today, many folk dedicate songs to him and worship him as GOD ALONE or sometimes as Jesus.😩🫠

That’s ERROR! (And we wonder why the world is so cray cray right now. 🙄)

Think rationally about this. Turn off your emotions if you’ve been triggered…and just think: How do you spell YOUR name? If a letter is missing, you correct that.

And you can’t use your incorrectly spelled name on a tax document or your passport. If you do, in time it’ll create minor and major issues.

So if you like your own name, don’t you think God like His? 🥺🥺🥺

This is a relationship…and how are we relating well to our Father in heaven if we don’t know His name??? 😭😭😭

If you’ve done it, please repent or simply stop. It’s the same thing. No fanfare necessary.

Begin to learn truth from error.

This is discernment - not knowing other people’s business. 😩 Discerning is knowing falsity from truth.

So please be careful.

And don’t follow anyone off this spiritual cliff we are all looking at, right now.

OH!! 🔥🔥🔥

And if you can’t figure out Who to call…CALL JESUS.

You can never go wrong trusting Jesus the Christified One. He always helps if you call. ALWAYS.🥹🥺

Link if you want to read. The good stuff is towards the bottom.

Here:

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02/24/2024

Every weekday morning, my trading friends and I get together to pray.🙏🏾🥰

Every morning, M-F @ 6am est.

And all sorts of things happen in that prayer time.

People get healed of heart-centered concerns.
Marriages improve.
Folk fall in love.
We learn of the beauty of the creative power and redemption of Christ.

It’s wonderful.🌹✝️

I hesitated joining because I’ve learned so much that church doesn’t really “fit” me anymore.

But I’m so glad I did.

See…lately, my Mommy has been talking a lot about death. A lot. 🥺

And I’ve been thinking of it. 😩

I wanted to take the thoughts to the prayer group…but I don’t have the right words yet to ask my questions.😵‍💫

Of course I know I’m eternal, as is my Mother. As is my daughter.

As was my father.

So where is Daddy right now?😳
Like…right now, right now??
And why did I hear the words I heard the day of his funeral and see what I saw? 🙃

And how exactly do you punish eternal beings who only were here for a whisper of time for all eternity??

And where exactly will Mommy go once her eyes close for the final rest? Like…where will she immediately go?

Me?

I know I’ll instantly be Home. I know it just like I know I’m Christi, here.

But what is it LIKE?? 🧐

I don’t want to think of these things just yet…but I must if I want to be prepared to say goodbye for a time to the one who gave me life. 🥺🥺🥺

Now I could pass first. That’s obvious. For me, that would be fine.

But I’m not ready to not have my mommy. Not ever.

To not be prepared would be to put myself into a world of despair…because I’m a Mommy’s girl all the way through.

🧿She. Is. My. HEART. ‼️💪🏾🔥🥰🧿

Yesterday in prayer, Theo told me, “Christi, you are supposed to be using your words.”

And of course I burst into tears. 🤣🤣😩🥰

Cause that’s what my Mommy says.

And the time today doesn’t quite feel like it did a year ago.

Time feels…different.
Like I might not have enough of it left.
And I don’t like it one bit.

A new season is loading.
I’d much rather it not.

But it will.

And I’ll continue this adventure with a softer smile.

It’s already begun.

* sigh *

There’s so much truth nowadays.

Love your loved ones.
Tomorrow doesn’t have to come for any of us.

📸: me
Models: nature and the ones I love
(Descriptions in comments)
🌹✝️

02/18/2024

Follow Christ, not religion.
🌹✝️

02/18/2024

The whole trip in pictures. I’d write a lot about it, but I’m too tired. Lots to process.

We are back home now. In NC…and while I type, things are percolating.

Time is speeding us to destiny.

And though I didn’t get to SEE V’s face, we did talk. Allllllmost got to visit him, but the agenda was Annie, and I had to stay available for the market as well.

That’s the season I’m in. Get. The. Bag.

Secure the family.💪🏾💰💪🏾

Until that’s totally stable, love will wait. It always does. It must. Because this love?

God gave it to us.

So I’m patient.

And when I see him again, I’ll be watching everything. 😳🤣🫣😫🥰

Myself. The weather. My dreams. My energy. Him. And I’ll KNOW it’s time again.

Right now, it’s simply not.

Still, everything in me longs for him…as I should. He knows. And we both are exercising the greatest restraint.

It’s beautiful to be lock step with another even during separation. Sad. But beautiful in ways I can only see with my eyes closed and a tear falling…🙏🏾🥺

How good it is to let love rest until it’s time to fully awaken it. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

The trip was successful.
Annie is signed to a Mother Agency. She hung out with friends who match her energy and sidelined a friend who refuses to grow. 🥺💪🏾

I fixed a thing in my trading to help me scalp less and hold the trend better and longer.

That’s it. Whole trip did what it came to do.

For the slightest description, look in comments.

God is GREAT.
And God is in us ALL.
Please remember.

You are more powerful than you realize.
🙏🏾🌹✝️

02/10/2024

Right now, as I type, I’m in NYC…and it wasn’t even planned. It’s like a test run for something that’s coming. That’s the energy. 😤💪🏾

My sweet girl is being blessed.

Both of us are. New York City is such a vibe when you’re meant to operate from here in some capacity.🥰🥰🥰

I wish I could explain with words the journeys I’ve traveled since starting this page. But I can’t.

There’s been careers and more careers.

There’s been love lost, love reclaimed, love faked, and love circling, trying to determine where to land. So. Much. LOVE! 🤣🥰🥰

There’s been trauma, healing, breaking, fixing, remembering, forgetting again, only to remember once more. 😬

There’s been wars and rumors of wars.

And generally…life been lifing out here!! And I’m grateful I’m learning my lessons.🥰

My friends are wonderful. My elders are old.

And my child is doing what her heart leads her to do. She’s HAPPY.

We are all walking in our purpose.

On purpose.💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾

To God be the glory for showing up for us - from the INSIDE.

The kingdom is IN US. And the more we act like that, the better it gets.

We dream. The dreams appear. We write that vision. And then we run surely with it. 🏃‍♀️🏃🏃‍♂️

Trading is BEAUTIFUL.
My daughter trades, now…and I wish I could express how it feels to be FREE. 💪🏾👌🏾💰

We learned how to get to that BAG, BRO! 🤣🥰

Thank You, GOD. Thank You Being.
Thank You, Master Jesus.
Thank You, Sweet Holy Spirit.
Thank You 🧜🏾‍♀️🌻🌹✝️

I hope you’re living that more abundant life.
It’s worth all the struggle. I promise it is.
✝️🌹

01/07/2024

Belated Happy New Year.

Never forget…💪🏾🌹✝️

12/22/2023

Happy 80th birthday, Mommy! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💕💕💕💕🌹🌹🌹

12/08/2023

Home made cough syrup: Onion honey.

Onion.
Garlic.
Juice from 1 lime.
Cayenne pepper.

Soak overnight.

Use a tablespoon at a time for an expectorant, pathogen killer, immune system booster, and cough soother.

I had covid and am recovering nicely. Finally. 🤣😫🤣 No longer sleeping all day…but this cough is RIDICULOUS.

I’m not leaving the onions to ferment.

Should keep refrigerated for 2-3 weeks. 🥰