14/02/2026
The Harvest She Never Tasted
She was more than a mother; she was the unshakable pillar of our home, a woman of unflinching dedication and a love so fierce it bordered on the sacred. She was one in a million, a rare gem who shone brightly in our lives. She was the only woman who could fight for me and never wanted me to be in trouble. She was my ultimate advocate, a woman who would descend into the arena to fight for me, shielding me from the world’s sharp edges even when my own actions were the cause of my trouble. She would defend me vehemently, when she knew I was in the wrong side, she refused to concede an inch to my critics unless I first confessed to her in private. To her, motherhood wasn’t just a role but it was a fortress.
She wouldn't tolerate anyone shouting at us; even my father knew that. It would often escalate into a conflict between her and him, as her defense of us was unwavering. She was hopeful, always blessing me and praising me, saying, "My teacher" …. she wanted me to become a teacher. She beamed with pride because I excelled academically. She would retaliate against criticism, especially from those who despised me, saying, "You will like him one day." I recall her saying after i was beaten by my big brother, "I want to buy you a puppy, and you can name it 'Muchandida' (You will like me)." She was a mother defending her child, hopeful that one day the tables would turn in my favor.
She was a mother who constantly worried about our next meal, whether it was supper, breakfast, or lunch. In times of need, she would strive to provide for us, making sure we had something to eat. Around harvest time, starting from December, her crops would be ripe….. small grains like sorghum and millet. She knew the timing, knew when she could conquer hunger. She would dry and grind them, preparing nutritious meals for us. She hated seeing us go to bed hungry, so she'd cook relish with plenty of okra or vegetables, serve it with a small portion of sadza, and encourage us to drink plenty of water. To her, that would fill our stomachs. She'd also prepare porridge from unripe pawpaws or cook them like potatoes, making soup, and we'd have something to eat for the night or day.
Who in our family can forget the Monkey Bread porridge (Masekesa)? She was a maestro at making it, and it saved us from starvation. I remember her traveling to distant places to buy sugarcane to sell, which would enable us to eat meat or pay our school fees.
That woman is deeply missed. My heart aches with the sting of remorse when I remember my childhood selfishness. I recall throwing stones in a fit of desperate tears, demanding school fees she didn't have. She'd take a whip, beat me, and I'd cry even more. Then she'd give me the only dollars she had to pay. A counseling session would follow, "Respect Mama." Oh, my poor Mum!
At one time, I was her trusted confidant; after coming from the local market where she'd be doing business, she'd call me to help her count her money. And yet, in my youth, I betrayed that trust by stealing from her. Imagine😭! I think of her now, ascending mountains to fetch firewood,
to sell to local businesspeople, nurses, or teachers ….. no scotch cart, no wheelbarrow, just her head, and she'd just earn a dollar for that load. She'd save that money until it could cover something – our school fees, household items, etc. But we were her top priority.
She'd toil in other people's fields to provide for her family. Imagine spending a whole day in someone's field and having to tend to her own field as well. There was a time when I was at university, and fortune smiled upon us. She was overjoyed, saying my dream had come true. When I came back from Harare during vacation, I was the only one allowed to take her groundnuts to eat, and the sack would be opened only for me. Yes, it would be closed after two weeks, but I'd savor those moments. She did it for her graduate. She'd dry fruits, sweet reeds, mushrooms, etc., just for her boy. What a blessing I had.
The cruelest irony of my life is that she never saw me walk across that graduation stage. While I celebrated my academic triumph, she was battling the illness that would eventually take her. Imagine all the sacrifices, all the expectations. Then God didn't allow that. She passed away in February 2017, a "bitter pill" that I am still trying to swallow. It feels like a stolen victory. She sowed the seeds in tears but was taken before she could taste the harvest……before I could buy her that fine dress, those soft shoes, or build her the home she deserved. Yet, I surrender to the Divine plan.
Nine years have passed, but her legacy is not written in stone; it is written in my very blood.
Till we meet again. I love you, Mama.
Chipo Matara nee Musakari
July 1960 - February 2017