10/06/2026
Good Morning.
What kind of a person is God? Take a moment to really think about this.
You are someone who has struggled to stop unwanted s*xual habits for a while. You have promised yourself—and God—not to do it again. Unfortunately, you have gone back to it again and again.
Does God get tired of your continuous struggle? Is He angry at you for continuing to be sunk in your mess? Has He stopped listening to your prayers?
I know how you probably feel. “God is holy,” you say. “He doesn’t tolerate sin or nonsense. He won’t let you off the hook for messing up, and He will sort you out if you continue down this path.”
I think our entire picture of God depends on our understanding of what sin actually is. For some of us, sin is simply a list of things God said are wrong—a set of rules He established to tell us what not to do. Well, if sin is just the breaking of rules, we have a problem. That would mean there is nothing inherently wrong with po*******hy except that God happened to put a rule in place that says, "Don't commit adultery." Looked at another way, it would imply that if God had declared p**n to be okay for whatever reason, then watching it would be perfectly fine.
But sin is not just the breaking of rules; it goes much deeper than that. Sin is a broken relationship with God. Sin is an attitude of lawlessness.
"Every person who practices sin commits an act of rebellion, and sin is rebellion." — 1 John 3:4 (CEB)
I know some versions render this same verse as: "Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law" (KJV). But that rendering misses the mark on the true heart issue, and many scholars argue that "rebellion" is the more accurate translation of the text. Sin is what causes us to want to break the rules, not just the act of breaking them.
Stated another way, watching p**n itself is the symptom; the real issue is whatever is driving us to want to watch it in the first place. It is a symptom of a broken relationship with God. It is not fundamentally about the rules.
When we reach the point of deciding to mess up, we are often doing so out of frustration with life and how we are experiencing God in that moment. Think about it. We want to have access to people of all shapes and sizes for our own s*xual gratification. In clicking on that website, we actively engage in a process that commodifies human beings. In that instant, they stop being actual people to us. We objectify them, and they become just a collection of body parts to drool over for our own pleasure.
Do we believe that God is there in our bedroom, or with us as we scroll on our phones from one video to another? Yes, we do. But why can't we stop, even when we intellectually know that God is right there?
Because fear is not strong enough to make us stop sinning.
We continue to scroll because, in that exact moment, nothing matters but our s*xual urge—not even God. We want what we want at all costs, before we ever worry about the consequences. Our urge becomes our god. Or, to put it more aptly, we become the center of attention; we have to be satisfied, even if it means choosing deeply unhealthy ways to do it.
That driving attitude—the one that simply does not care until it gets what it wants—that is the rebellion. That is the sin. Until that root attitude is dealt with, you will continue to break the rules, because in the heat of the moment, rules don't matter to you.
King David understood that this was a heart issue. After he fell into deep sin with Bathsheba, he didn't pray for a stricter set of rules. Instead, he prayed:
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." — Psalm 51:10 (NIV)
"Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." — Psalm 139:23-24 (NIV)
David knew that God needed to fix his heart and his mind. Unless the heart changes, the unwanted behavior will always continue. David didn’t need a longer list of restrictions to keep him in line; he needed God to search him thoroughly and expose the hidden issues driving his actions.
Today, ask God to reveal to you why you keep going back to the same material again and again.
Why are you intrigued by those specific videos?
Why do you find yourself drawn to those particular themes?
Why does your heart and mind desire them?
Where is all of that truly coming from?
Ask God to uncover the root of your struggles so that the genuine healing of your heart can begin.
Stop running.
