07/21/2025
Anonymous-Struggles
An Open Letter for my hmmm... parents?
if you read this, I hope you will listen to me with an open mind. I am not writing this to hurt you, but so that you can understand how I feel.
I do not always fight for myself. In fact, I often just endure when I am belittled or not listened to. Sometimes, I feel like, no matter what I do, I am still lacking in your eyes. I do not feel like I am your child, but like I am just someone who needs to do something at home to be of value. I know, I am still young in your eyes. And because of that, sometimes you do not accept my perspective or my feelings. But I am also a human beingβwith feelings, thoughts, and going through things. I do not use this as an excuse to respond or be offended, but I hope you understand that it is not easy to feel the need to always defend yourself.
I am sorry if I cannot give the respect that you want me to return immediately. But respect should also be felt and experienced.
It's hard to be humble when I feel like I'm worthless as a child. You know, outside the home, especially at school, I feel trusted and respected. That's why they look at me kindly and as trustworthy. That's where I see my abilities, and they appreciate me. That's probably why it hurts even more when my own family sees me as weak, lacking, stupid, rude, or not enough.
I know that there are times when I respond, especially when I'm hurt. I'm not saying that's right, but I just want to explain that I'm not just responding because I'm rudeβI'm responding because I want to explain myself. I'm not looking for an ally, I know that none of you want to understand me/be on my side. Because all you hear is yourself. And in your eyes, you're the only one who gets tired. I'm also human, I get tired, I make mistakes, I have feelings to get hurt.
I'm not asking for a perfect family. I just want to feel that you understand me, and that you accept me as your childβnot because of what I do at home, but because you love me. If you read this, I hope your first reaction will not be anger. I hope you will listen to me, not just as a child, but as a person with feelings who just wants to feel like part of the family, not a burden. Thank you very much if you read this in its entirety.
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